DISCLOSURE: layin' my cards on the table

[~^MaTs~^]

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WOW!!! Things are getting much more complicated these days... But as it is getting complicated, I'm real glad that Pao and I have settled things na. We already talked everything out... No conditions or whatever... We just straighten things up and of course in a civilized and diplomatic way... All's well that ends well... I just want some things clear lang... Parang lumalabas kasi na I've been this SUPER villain dito, which 'am not... But, of course - it's not Pao that I'm saying who see me as villain... Maybe some people or I dunno... But, in a way, natutuwa ako kasi we were able to fix things na... I'm not into those types of arguments talaga. As much as possible, ayaw ko ng may katampuhan or what especially kapag super ka-close ko yung tao... I just wish and I also told Pao, that "I wish, he's here sa Philippines... Para naman mayakap nia ako" like what he confessed on his thread... Aantayin ko yan PAOLO MIGUEL... hahaha!!!

ANN, where are you na? Well, I guess she's supper busy... Don't worry, I'll keep you posted na lang...

CHARLES, super miss na kita dood!!! Nasan ka na ba? Anyways, may sira nga pala connections mo... Anyway, hope maayos na... Can't wait to hear from you ulet...

GEE, herher... super i loved our chatness last night! controberness talaga yun, sobra... Nakakatuwa naman kayo ng Hugs mo... herher! haii... wala na kc yung d'original kong ka-loveteam... wilder than wild and mas cuteness & awness... herher... sabi nia "akala ko ba mahal mo ako mats..." herher... nakiRide! cuteness! ;D
>>>>> Huny Bee, where na kaya cia... herher!!!

IAN, naman eh... lahat ng nababasa ko sa confession thread mo, c BBK halos nagpopost... Miss na kita remember yung nick ntin? "bak <<ian" and "girl >> mats"? haii! iL text you na lang...

KASHEN & PAO, going stronger ba kayo?!?! Herher... How I wish para laging INSPIRED si PAO... Iba kapag always ka anjan... harhar... Kashen, panay ba gimmick mo sis?

MARGE, haii, kaSad naman di mo pa din sembreak... Lahat wala ng pasok, ikaw na lang ang meron... kaLungkot... wala na ako nadidinig too many stories from u... The last was ung sa sharing natin sa girl's roomness natin... herher!

MICA & TRISH, naxx naman! ;D Boy talks... paJoin ka naman... herher... Kikay stuffs, boy stuffs... haii, anyways regarding sa ating GEB, text niyo naman ako when and how yung plans...

ROWEN, asan ka na din? SemBreak na ah... Anyway, babalik ka ata sa province nio di ba? Anyway, musta kna? Wala lang... Speechless ako...

NEIL, stage of confusion ka talaga... I know how you feel talaga... Been there, done that din... It's really hard talaga, when you're still expecting for someone & you can't make a move sa isa... Haii, I can feel the pressure talaga... As in...

KENNETH, holu mockaholy! wazup man? herher! haven't heard from u huh... so, yung "unfaithful" mo na lang pinakikinggan ko...

BBK, nag invite ka sa confe you left naman agad... wala pang chikahan at kwentuhan... herher...

[~^MaTs~^]

Well, last night I did vote for the First Nomination... But of course, made a thorough decision that I know might lead into distance or misinterpretations... I just don't know why this is getting strange lately. Before, we used to have only +2 evicting points and -2 saving points... Now, the process bacame more destitute... But still - I do hope that we all made the right decision on who's worthy enough to stay and leave the virtual house... We all have this certain criteria in choosing here, we're all individuals who may have or may not have the same aspects on how we're gonna process our game in the long run. But still, whatever decisions we may have done are all depending on how we see it now. You may see or read this the wrong way or right way - but what 'am trying to say is that we're all responsible in our actions. We may have a bunch or circles of friends here, but that doesn't mean that - we do choose someone for the company itself, but because we all know that we all have differences as humans and that we just want to do the right thing possible.

Some virtual housemates,might have been wronged or worst, walked on someone else's here. But I do believe in CHANGES... That if there's one permanent thing in this world it's CHANGE. People, may have done things the hard way, they may have hurt someone or the other way around. Still, I do know that no matter how rough, mean, harsh they were, I know that in due time, we'll all see the true colors behind these persons... They may have wronged someone... They may have caused sullen reactions from our fellow virtual housemate, they way have been the wicked one, STILL... I know that everyone deserves a second chance here.

Ian, who I just sent a personal message last night. I do have this thing in mind that the you weren't able to read the second message I sent you. I know that I should not take things the bad way. I know that you have this grave stuffs inside your mind and have said things to the persons who nominated you for the mock nomination... Well, just to be brief girl... MOCK, to treat with contempt or ridicule... to disappoint the hopes of... DEFY, CHALLENGE, to mimic in sport or derision... SIMULATED or FEIGNED... (pagpapawalang kabuluhan, panunuya) I MAY HAVE DISAPPOINT YOU & YOUR EGO ON THAT NOMINATION (I'm sure I did...) but from the mechanics itself for the mock nomination, it's just a dry run. Just a question though, DO YOU THINK THAT I, GIVING YOU MY 2 EVICTING POINTS PUT YOU INTO DANGER? Direct answer though, in my opinion... I think it did not. I don't know why you have to be fussy with regards to that issue. I do understand what you're saying... I myself will feel bad if I see myself there. But that's how it's done. I do, tell you that IT'S ME, not for you to HATE ME or INDIFERRENT ME or ABHOR ME... You even replied on my 1st message and told me "CHE!" I remember vivdly that I responded with "Che kdn!" But voting you for mock nomination doesn't necessarily mean I no longer like you... Why am I still texting you, checkin' up on you and even updated you on this game? Just one answer though, no matter how mean we saw you before I believe that inside me, my concern is YOU. Get mad if you want to, it's alright with me...

Trisha, get well soon.

Mica, how come I don't ran into you here anymore?

Neil, hope brownout's over... About the other day, not that big-a-deal... There are more time and of course makakapagBond pa din naman tayong lahat.

Jomar, #1 caller ko ito! Mega kadaldalan and ka-Chismax ko... remember "2 balls" for billiards?

Ann, I kept on texting you ha? How come no reply? Anways, take care girl!

Charles, great to hear from you last night... Glad to hear your voice din... ;D

Gee, take care always girl... Ang aking kaTropang Gising! GO GIRL!

Kashen & Paolo, Way to go! Wish you both the best... Song mo ba for Kashen yung "Here You Come Again"? lolz... ;D

Marge, the best ka talaga sis... Hope to hear from you ulet... Cancelled bigla yung event namin tomorrow... So I guess, I'll see you either 27 or 28... ;D

Rowen, i'll keep you posted of course... I'm just a text away...

Kenneth, malapit ka na ba naming i-WELCOME HOME?!?! lolz...

Till next... Miss you guys!

[BBKuya Germs]

we can't officially close the voting po...
you posted the message 11:17
11:32 pa lang po...
meron pa po magvovote...

It's past 12mn already in PBBFG board.

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK, this is what I read from the Nomination Thread...
Nomination period: Sunday, October 22 (12:01AM) - Tuesday, October 24 (11:59PM) [Philippine Time]

[BBKuya Germs]

Re: DISCLOSURE: layin' my cards on the table
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BBK, this is what I read from the Nomination Thread...
Nomination period: Sunday, October 22 (12:01AM) - Tuesday, October 24 (11:59PM) [Philippine Time]

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK, baka magkaiba lang po oras natin sa board...

[~^MaTs~^]

Ayun,,, with what you see from this thread... There's been this "stuff" that BBK and me has been discusssing... Not that I'm appealing (again) or protesting... What I am trying to say - is that the time on the BLOGSITE and pbbfantasygame PROBOARDS are not SYNCHRONIZED... The time on my pc, may have been 7mins. late from the board, but it's just a matter of minutes... Like what others say, BETTER LATE THAN NEVER... That's my own opinion lang naman. I am not saying that I'm against or has something to do with anyone here... I was just a bit shocked when around 11:17 BBK posted that the NOMINATION is already closed and 2 AVHs have an invalid ballot... Well, it all happens sometimes. Who can prevent that from coming right. We're all not aware of what's gonna happen next here... BOTTOMLINE: It happened na... No matter how much we yearn that "we" could all do something about it, WE JUST CAN'T SIMPLY PUT and HAVE AN INSTANT REMEDY FOR THAT...

Just can't imagine how things are happening 'round here inside the Virtual House. I really don't know how I'm going to comment on all those stuffs I read from the other virtual housemates... Honestly speaking (so to speak as always), I never really thought that the First Nomination will become this "hot" and "controversial"... I can't blame each and everyone of them who were VOTED FOR +4 and +2 evicting points... I know how that feels and sure thing it would really hurt me the way they were... But, we all don't know what's running inside the virtual housemate's mind to do and say things that could be really hurtful, painful, harsh and rough...

By the way, I just want to quote some things... We're all free and open to this, right?

neilboyg415 said:

Oh, No!

This is really bad news for me. I have just scanned through the result of the nomination... SI TRISH BA TALAGA ANG FIRST VH TO BE VOTED OUT???

Im really gonna be so sad. She had been one my closest since Season 1. She's really a good friend inside and outside PBB. Id be missing her............

I respect the decision of the co-housemates naman. Wla na akong magagawa dun if they think she has to go tlaga.....

Sigh............

Did not expect this to happen.

SO SAD RIGHT NOW........

I know how you feel Neil... This situation, already happened to me... Season2 to be exact... But, hear me out guys... We "still" have to do our math here (like what BBK, used to tell me, way back)... We're still not sure of thuings... We still doesn't know who's gonna be the NEXT EVICTEE here... I don't know, if it's Trish... Will it be Trish? Rowen? Kashen? WE ALL DON'T KNOW... If there's one person, who's worthy to decide and to say who SHOULD STAY or SHOULD GO,,, still it's BBK... I do understand how you feel... I would feel the same if one of my closest ^ oldest friend will leave... Just CHILL, I know everything will fall into places...

In addition, I want to comment on what Trish confessed...

trish29 said:

well, the nomination result comes out na! hayz... atleast now... you really know who's the REAL person and who's NOT!!!!!!! here we go again! lumalabas na naman ang mga doble kara na tao! tapos they'll say na COnCERN sila sayo? OMG! "GET REAL"!!!!!!!! Lahat din tayo eh ma-eevict! may kanya-kanya lang tayong panahon! regarding my answers dun sa question ni kuya... im just being me! akala ko ba we're free to answer? well, yun lang ang sinagot ko! and im nothing against QUITTING! Even ako eh like din mag quit before, so bakit ako magsasalita against it? baka di mo lang naintindihan yung sinabi ko! please read it again, ok? kaya nga "BIAS" ang sinagot ko kasi kahit ako eh may idea na mag quit! heller! and nga pala kung ma-out man ako here, eh OK lang sa akin kasi atleast di ako na-out kasi naging "PASAWAY" ako... atleast na-out ako dahil may mga tao talagang "PLASTIC"! kunyari concern... pero deep inside eh may galit pala syo! Back fighter kung baga! MG! students na alang breeding? sayang lang pinapa-aral ng magulang nyo sa inyo! dapat pala mag iingat na ang susunod na evictee kasi halos lahat pala ng mga tao dito eh PLASTIC at kaaway! and atleast kahit papaano eh di ako naligo sa "WARNING!!!!!!!!!" i did my best to be a real person dito sa hse ni kuya... lahat kina-ibigan ko and lahat pinakisamahan ko! di ako tulad ng iba dyan na parang inagawan ng candy ang rerevenge ngayon! ay wawa naman ang baby! punta na u sa mom mo drink your milk na daw at baka daw kasi lumamig eh! harhar! and patungkol naman sa family ko... well, atleast ako inuuna ko muna ang family ko other than anything from this world... kasi malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanila eh.... ang besides Im very PROUD of them! kasi at all cost eh napalaki nila ako na TOTONG TAO AKO! period....

to mica.... dont QUIT sis, im fine! dont worry... tanggap ko ang decision nila! Dont worry we're the BEST 4 ng season 1, at ala ng papalit pa dun! and tayo ang ORIG! remember that.... kung baga sa cd eh sila ay ang PIRated na! please wag u mag quit! mag mong iiwan si NEIL-g!

to neil-g thanks for ur support! wag mong papabayaan si MICA at KEN... kaya nyo yan to make it on the top.... sa susunod be careful sa pagkakaibigan nyo ok?

BBK.... thx po sa lahat! i guess di naman ako masasave ng saving points na na-gather ko eh... pero thx pa rin po sa lhat! god bless and more power!

Trish, NO OFFENSE girl.. I think it's not proper for you to say that there are people here who are "DOBLE KARA" Nobody's "DOUBLE FACING" here... All of us are just doing what we're all to do... Whatever decision that others may have done, I think the least we should all do is, RESPECT IT... You said, GET REAL... That's TRUE. Reality Game, as how we know this game... I guess, they're just being REAL... NO PRETENSIONS... NO HASSLES... JUST PLAIN AS THEY ARE... We're ALL REAL HERE... Nobody said, that we're not... Calm down girl... Reading your confession, I know it won't do US good. ALL OF US WILL SOON BE EVICTEES here... Wala namang may sabi na, walang dapat maEvict. Plus, if that's what they want, LET'S JUST ALL RESPECT IT... That's how we all see it. Kung mali man ang iboto ka, sooner or later, maiwan ka man sa VH, ganun pa din... May boboto pa din sa ating lahat. Wala namang safe dito... Also, I'M REALLY SORRY, IF I HAVE TO SAY THIS... You also wrote there that "kung ikaw man ang ma-out dito, ok lang syo" I don't think, it's ok with you... I see the bitterness there... All of US HAVE OUR END HERE... We all don't know when. Also, "students na walang breeding" I think, it's more "below the belt" na... Lahat naman tayo, hangga't maari, hangga't kaya ng parents natin, palalakihin nila tayo ng ayon lang sa norms natin. I don't see it as "walang breeding" - you may be the ELDEST here, I MAY BE the 2nd... Kaya lang, with regards to how you reacted, not so sure about it... We should all BE CIVILIZED here... Isa ako sa mga "kinaIbigan mo" Trish... I accepted that... Pure friendship... If you were hurt with the words dpat bigyan ng "evicting pts" mga gustong magQuit, ok lang, pananaw mo yun. That's how you see things... Yeah "bias" nga... But do u think - that during the 1st or 2nd stay here at VH, eh, proper ba, magkaroon ng invitations for "alliances" sort of thing... I think, it's not... No hard feelings, we're still in the middle of BUILDING rapport and friendship here... We hardly know each other, we all doesn't know who's capable of doing it and who isn't. But if we're all befriending someone here, we shouldn't LAY PLANS...

The truth... I never really thought that this thing will be such a biggie... I'm so sorry... You may not be talking things against me, you might be... But whoever it is you're saying, kahit gaano pa ka-Obvious, let's just all be straight here... Lahat naman tayo, eh NASASAKTAN din... Kung mga aso nga, marunong masaktan at magtampo, TAYONG mga TAO pa kaya...

[BBKuya Germs]

Oct 26, 2006, 1:11am in my board clock

[~^MaTs~^]

Oct 26, 2006, 1:13am po sa board clock ko...
Advance po pala ako... Ako pala ang advance...
Sorry po...

[~^MaTs~^]

CONTINUATION... of what I have to say:

mica said:

WOAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dami nangyari ah...

Let me react muna sa results ng nomination:

I am not surprised upon seeing my name sa mga binoto ng mga virtual housemates. Thank God hindi counted boto nina Rommel at Kashen

Pasensya na sayo Rommel kung naiirita ka sa akin. Sorry din kung sa tingin mo hindi ako friendly. Pag nagtatanong ka naman sumasagot ako. Meron lang talaga akong inayawan sayo before and If you think na hindi worthy basahin mga entries ko, eh di wag mong basahin

Kay Kashen hindi ako nakikialam sa mga culture ng seasons I was just stating ours and yeah, sigur0 nga nagkaroon lang ng "culture shock" since nung panahon nga namin wala pang pbbfg board and not much issues and stuff. there are times na naka-invi ako sa ym at hindi lang ako ang may gawain nun. sana nga makapagchat din tayo once sa board lang kasi tay0

Kay Spanish Eyes (kilala na kita) just want to clarify what specific question yun? hope to read your response in your next confession. I'm not mad but I think I'm missing something

Nacho Libre as far as im concerned wala akong ginawa sayo or whatever. Sinasabi ko naman lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Oh well.

Thanks sa mga nagsave sa akin! slither lam mo hindi obvious sino ka.. love you hehe

Sino kaya Zoey? hmmm... tnx for whatever appreciation u have. I'm happy to be ur friend

Still have to read some entries. Hay tagal kong hindi nakababad!

Hi Mica! This is more "BROADER" for a 19 year old... Marami na ngang nangyari... Ako din nagulat. Just gave my self some sleep and when I logged in here at proboards, ang dami ko ng nabasa... WOW!!! I'm really out or words... Guess, because of INVALID VOTES and niReveal ni BBK ang mga names ng mga nagVote sa'yo... Well, we just got our more stuffier chat this afternoon and I guess, it's not fair, for you not to know this... At first, I thought THERE'LL BE NO STUFFS THAT WE'LL SOON BE TALKIN' ABOUT WITH... Kanina, meron pala... To be honest... IRONIC right? Well, like what I said, "some things do happen the least you expect it..." And "THIS" thing may be inclusive of that... Good to hear naman sa'yo (you may take this the positive or negative way) but whichever way you want to feed your mind from this confession, I RESPECT IT... At least, I can say that, we may have SILENCE between us the first 21 days here sa virtual house, but what matters is we're now passing through that bridge and finally talking about stuffs.
MICA, goodluck sa pag-ibig...
NEIL, goodluck din... I know and I do feel your past the CONFUSION STAGE... From your texts, I can feel na, happy ka na... I'm glad, YOU ARE...
JOMAR, well, isa ka pa kiddo... "two ball kid" CALM DOWN... Take it easy... Say "woosah..." several times... lolz... ;D
KENNETH, well lapit na iyong pagbabalik... LET'S GO ka na!
IAN, wag ka na magPASARING sa confession mo about the Mock Nominations... Name, names na! Parang di ikaw yung Ian ngayon...
ROWEN, stay positive... Parang pati ako, natetense sa text mo... ;D Soar high kiddo!
PAO, don't be so sad... Alam ko naman na "it ain'over, till it's over..." ryt?
MARGE, keep up, sis! Di tau natuloy, kanina... Nag cancel client namin... Sa Friday na lang... Hope you could come...
CHARLES, thanks for the usual concern! I know, both you and Pao do cares for me... Goodluck sa enrollment later!
GEE, Waaah! Di mo na ko binalikan sa YM... hehehe! *lolz* okei lang... Madami pang bukas...
KASHEN, well I know how you feel din... That's the effect of pent up emotions,,, you just burst out and say things... Basta, always look forward... But don't forget where you came from, ryt? Basta, we do feel the same... Na, IF IT IS REALLY OUR TIME, ACCEPTANCE lang... We all don't want to end up in DENIAL, dba? Basta, I know you naman... Basta, abante ka na lang... There's PAO to back you up... Miss ka na nia...
ANN, I know naman, busy ka with stuffs, don't worry may everyday supply ka sa'kin ng text... hahaha! *lolx*
TRISH, let's all be open here... A bit frank in a way and direct... Cool down... We're all but humans here... Lahat tayo, nasasaktan din... We all do play the game. You have your own ways on how to play it... Yung init ng ulo, walang maitutulong yun...
BBK, sorry po sa time...
Peace Out you all!
Looking forward for the days to come!

[~^MaTs~^]

trish29 said:

"Kung walang "GUILTY" walang magrereact!!!!!!!"

PAOLO - I understand you.... kasi i know na inlove ka.... and bakit ka GALIT na GALIT sa word na IMMATURE? ganun ka ba? eh bakit kasi halos maglupasay ka sa galit? Ang pagkaka-alam ko kasi pag di guilty ang isang tao eh di magrereact! now, who's not plastic? are u sure u're doing that for urself? sigurado ka bang yan talaga ang gusto ng self mo or u're just doing that to impress someone? haaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CHARLES - yung thing about the pirata or the best... nagtataka lang ako kung bakit kayo nagrereact? pati ba naman yun pinatulan pa!actually, that message is for MICA so labas na kayong lahat dun..... i wrote that to mica para i-cheer-up sya, kasi she wants to quit.... ngayon kung may problem ka about that eh on ur next post lagyan mo rin ng "THE BEST" at "ORIG" yung name mo! di naman problema yun eh! asus! kainggitan ba ang message ko kay mica! ang hirap kasi nagrereact kayo sa mga di dapat pag reactan... pero yung dapat na reactan nyo di kayo nagrereact! asus!

KASHEN - and then.... and then..... and then..... ah ok! yeah yeah! watever! so aminado kang plastic ka? kasi according to you "PASAWAY" ka na sa real life?! pero sa game pa-goody-goody effect ka? oh pao... labas na ako dyan sya mismo ang umamin ah!

JOMAR - You really dont know kung ano ang mga sinasabi mo.... better check it first to mica and neil-g kung ano ba tlga ang totoo behind dyan sa mga pinagsasabi mo! baka kainin mo yan pag nalaman mo kung ano ang totoo! about doon sa gusto kang i-vote out... i can name 8 persons here na like kang i-vote out! kaya piliin mo kung sino ang paniniwalaan mo!

MATS- sis, minsan lang ako mag salita.... pero if it comes to my family.... sagad hanggang buto nila ang sasabihin ko! di ako magiging ganito kung di nila sinali ang pamilya ko sa game na ito... ikaw ba gawin bang reason yung family mo? bakit kasalanan ko bang may mamatay? so ano pala yung mga "CONDOLENCES" nila? pakitang tao lang? so, sino ba ang plastik? and about dun sa nephew ko i dont need their reaction about it! kelan pa nagkaroon ng "FAMILY UPDATE" dito? YOu guys stay away from my family!!!!!!!!!! wala silang kinalaman dito! mag isip kayo ng ibang palusot nyo wag ang pamilya ko! i know sis ganito rin ang mararamdaman mo pag family mo na ang involve....

GEE - kung talagang di effective ang pagpaparinig eh bakit lahat kayo sobrang naglulupasay sa pagrereact? aber? ikaw, may i ask you this... are u sincere ba sa pag cocondolence mo sa akin? or wala lang trip mo lang sabihin yun..... ika-tutuwa mo ba yung reason na family mo ang involve? i dont think so!

MICA - she's the other person who really knows me so well..... i can name a few person here sa talagang totoong tao! yung talagang i klnow na di plastic! and i can prove it! sis.... wag ka na munang mag react regarding this.... kaya ko pa! ngayon sis sino-sino ang mga lumalabas na totoo at nagpapanggap lang? diba sis, kung walang guilty.... walang magrereact! ang hirap kasi sa mga tao... ayaw pang umamin eh huling-huli na naman! kung sabagay sino ba ang aamin! feeling kasi nila pag umamin sila na IMMATURE sila eh may mawawala na sa kanila! sigh...........

NEIL-G - dude, di naman ako ganito diba? even sa season 1 wala akong paki-alam sa mga tao.... ngayon lang ito kasi nga ikaw ba gawing issue ang pamilya mo di ka ba magiging affected? wala kasing maisi na dahilan eh... ganun ba ang natural na decision? eh ano kung wala na silang respeto... so lumalabas lang ang totoong "SILA"..... ngayon sino ang lumalabs na mas "PALEKERA" diba? ok na sana na iba na lang ang i-reason nila eh... pero namemersonal na masyado! and i dont like it! kung wala silang paki-alam sa family nila... pwes ako, meron.... MALAKI! malaking malaki!

and please..... wag nyong isali si NEIL-TG dito dahil labas sya dito! he's nothing against this!

I'LL TACKLE THIS THING FIRST...
Ok, to start with, YES, YOU'RE VERY TRUE... KUNG WALANG MAGREREACT, WALANG GUILTY... YES... TRUE... Yung resulta ng nomination, was released by BBK, and now tell me... Meron ba o walang nagreact? MERON, right? WE'RE ALL HUMANS HERE... Lahat tayo, nasasaktan... OO. MASAKIT BUMOTO SA SOBRANG BABAW NA DAHILAN. OO, MASARAP MAINLOVE, and to the POINT NA YOU'LL DO EVERYTHING AND DEFEND THAT ONE PERSON YOU LOVE... We should not stoop down to "their" level... THEIR? Who are they? PAOLO, KASHEN, MARGE, JOMAR... They're all but KIDS. Tayo, we're the eledest here. TAYO YUNG DAPAT NA NAGIGING HALIMBAWA NG MGA YAN... Aside from their parents who brought them up, TAYO naman dito sa cyber world TO SET GOOD EXAMPLE FOE THESE KIDS. Yes, WE ARE ALL SENSITIVE IN HERE. Madaling masaktan. Ako, OO, nasaktan ako sa mga nabasa ko... WHY? Because mababawa na dahilan pinapalalim natin. Dito lang "NAGBEBENGGAHAN SA CONFESSIONAL". Yes, maybe PAOLO just did that TO IMPRESS SOMEONE - SOMEBODY... YOU ALL KNOW, it's KASHEN. Kahit naman sino, ganyan ang gagawin. And with all due respect, we're all FREE TO SAY WHAT WE WANT HERE... Now isn't the time para mag "sweet talks" tayo dito, or "magpatweetums" We're all grown ups here... They may be IMMATURE, DI TOOTOONG TAO or worst PLASTIC, I don't care... They're kids. GROWING KIDS... They're just buds here, di pa bumubukaka and full grown na bulaklak... TAYO ANG DAPAT NA NAG IINSTILL SA KANILA ng BAGAY for them to understand. Hindi yung ganitong KA-SIMPLENG NOMINATION, ginawang KOMPLIKADO. Can't we just drop this once and for all? TRISH, hindi ikaw ang natanggal... ROWEN, hindi din sya... KASHEN, hindi din sya. ALL OF YOU ARE STILL HERE INSIDE THE VIRTUAL HOUSE... CAN'T WE JUST BE A LITTLE CIVIL HERE... Stop acting like a kid. If this isn't such a BIGGIE FOR YOU ALL, WHY CAN'T STOP TALKING ABOUT IT?
<This is just my insight as to what Trish responded on Pao's confession...>

[~^MaTs~^]

Next, I want to react dun sa sinabi ni Charles and sa comment sa kanya...

Masakit yung issue about this PIRATED CDs kasi... We all are INDIVIDUALS here, and for sure, I know ALL OF US HAS THESE DIFFERENCES as HUMAN. Pero, sana, no more FAKE or PIRATED issues...
NEIL Tan Gana - Season One's Big Winner
NEIL Gargar - Season One's Runner Up
PAOLO Miguel Mata - Season Two's Big Winner
MARISTEL Ocampo - Season Two's Runner Up
CHARLES Mark Vilorria - Season Three's Big Winner
GEE Ann Katherine Giray - Season Three's Runner Up

Lahat yang names jan, we all have differences... Lahat tayo marunong masaktan... And so am I...

Trish, kahit ako, nasa lugar mo... When it's my family na who's involved, masasaktan din ako. I guess, it's just right that you reacted from our Confessions... Pero, right after, sana... Sana, open talk with the other VHs din... Di yung ganito. I MAY HAVE TOLD JOMAR "the secret" that's it. I know he is impulsive. BBK was also inside the conference room... I AM NOT COMING CLEAN here... So to speak, I DECIDED TO POST THE FIRST CHAT WE HAD... I'M SO SORRY... BBK's right..

"pbbfantasygame: what is important may ginagawa ka para ayusin ang isang bagay na sa tingin mo ay mali...
"pbbfantasygame: wag mong isipin ang sasabihin ng iba...
"pbbfantasygame: pero tandaan mo rin na may kaakibat ang mga actions natin"

Well, THIS MAY PUT ME IN GRAVE DANGER... MAGALIT NA ANG MAGAGALIT SA AKIN... I DON'T CARE NA LANG SIGURO...

I know you all know who I voted out and who I saved... But still, it has never been a reason enough for me not to continue communicating and texting you guys... I know, SOME MAY TAKE THIS NEGATIVELY, for whatever it may cause me, I WILL DO ACCEPT IT...

I guess, kapag mali, lalo't tayo ang magkakasama, hanggat't kaya ko, ITATAMA KO... Yun ang papel ko dito... UMINTINDI...

Till here muna...

[~^MaTs~^]

To Mica, "All's well, that ends well"

Guess, and I do hope, that we'll all "close the book" and open another chapter... Let us all bury the hatchet, better to SET THIS A LESSON FOR US ALL...

Like what I once quoted, "First Impressions Never Really Last..." And among the few, you're one of them... I see you as someone "I CAN'T GET ALONG WELL WITH" But after our chat yesterday, that proved me wrong... You're still young... A LOT OF YOU HERE INSIDE THE Virtual House are actually YOUNG... Soon, you'll see for yourselves, that what I once said here is TRUE... WHAT YOU SEE IN ME... Is the REAL ME...

NO PRETENSIONS, NO HASSLES... JUST PLAIN AND SIMPLY ME...
Maristel a.k.a. Mats Ocampo...

Looking forward for a brighter start here...

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK...
New rule na sa Confession Thread...
And sabi nga sa song, rules must be obeyed (daw po)...
Anyway, BBK nakakapanibago lang po yung Virtual House...

Pero, to honest... I did not regret doing and saying the things I've said and posted yesterday. Kung may nasagasaan man po ako... I'm sorry... It's just that - it's hard keeping things inside yourself... Always pretending not to care about what's happening inside the Virtual House. Everything may have happened so fast, but I think it's better than I will slowly lay things... Feels more like your're bare body was being peeled off from the duct tape that someone twined you you with...

For anything, everything - it's still ME... Mats... Not a single change from me... I'll go a thousand times just to tell this... Some may have changed, but that doesn't include me... And now, I know who really are the true people inside this house and forver I'll be keeping them inside my heart...

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK... I think, there are things that needs CLARIFICATION inside the Virtual House...
I want everything to be said...
Kasi BBK, ang pinaka ayaw ko po sa lahat ay yung ako ang pinagmumukhang masama...
All I became since day 01 inside this house was to become a listener...
SHOCK ABSORBER ng lahat ng feelings ng ibang VHs...
Ako ang nag aabsorb... Actually, ABSORBING everything has never became an issue to me...
But from what I read from someone's CONFESSIONAL here,,, I think that person might be implying something against me or other co VH...
I am very aggravated upon reading it... That person won't stop talking...
Might as well, we discuss it where it should be discussed...
Also, I think everybody's well aware that "WE SHOULD ALL REFRAIN FROM MENTIONING ASVHs NAME" inside this confession thread...
And that just person won't cease... If that person really want to elaborate and talk things, then GO AHEAD... TALK... Talk to me...

And please refrain yourself from being so judgmental... You don't have a single clue of what you're saying... "BRAINWASHING" WOW!!!

Now, it's me and a fellow VH are the ones who's doing that! Come on! Wow! BBK, in this case, I think there's something wrong that, that person want to imply... If that person is implying something, then tell me >>> STRAIGHT UP... This is getting "NOWHERE"... I really don't want to make this - such a BIGGIE... But I think - up to now, that person just can't get rid of me... Just let me know... "YOU WANT ME OUT?" Tell me... I think, seeing me out, will make you happy...

Peace out...

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK...

Mahirap po pala talaga ngayon dito sa All-Star... Some do think that there's some kind of an alliance... Also, got an info that there maybe some housemates na may target na for the next nomination... Someone spilled it... But, I don't know how true that person might be saying. Coz, there has been a lot of UNEXPECTED THINGS that happened here. I may have been close to someone before, knowing that being friends with that person, knowing that in some points I'll see what really is beneath those words and that person's being depth and all.

To those, who's thinking that I am against them or have this things against them, iniisip niyo lang yun. I just never thought that this game will be so sensational. I don't know... I've known someone here BBK that I considered my closest... But as days go by... That person is starting to scare me... BBK, to be honest, yes. I really did want to join this All Star. But, the first few days during the registration, I can't get through the boards - till I knew from Gee, that Day 01 has started already. And it was a fellow VH from my season was the one who registered for me here. So since, I was chosen, I just did my part the way I have to be.

There has been a lot of ambiguous things that happened the first 26 days. I'm happy that I am already building rapport with the other VHs as well... But if there's one thing that TRIGGERED ME THE MOST, was being judged! Siguro BBK, you know what I'm saying... Kaya lang po, ang di ko lang malaman, bakit ganun ang tao na yun. Yes, matalino sya... Kanina po, that person was kindda harassing one of my fellow VH. Mean things were said to that person. Naaawa ako sa kanya. Yung tao na yun, I understand concern siya sa akin and all. Kaya lang, dahil sa concern niya na MISINTERPRET sya. Yung isa po, walang ginawa kundi iJudge sya ng iJudge...

There's nothing wrong na minsan, maawa ka sa sarili mo, kaya lang... That person has been overdoing it. Kindda irritating na. Kindda more like seeking for attention. Yeah, may NAASAR, may NABANAS sa akin for not showing up or returning their calls or replying to their messages. THAT'S MY BAD... But, I think COLLAPSING to the extent that all parts of your body was so cold and numb, PROPER PO BA NA UNAHIN ng PINSAN KO, na SINISISI din ng taong yun, why my cousin can't text or reply...

He asked my friend to talk to me. I did texted the concerned housemate and said CALL ME... And then, there was it. Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganito... Na sobrang nanginginig ako sa galit... I said, PAKINGGAN MUNA NIYA AKO... WHAT I HAVE TO SAY... PATAPUSIN NIYA AKO MAGSALITA... Sabi niya LISTEN DAW SYA... I do admit it...

CATHARSIS - releasing all your pent up emotions....

That's what I did. I just released all the painful things and stuffs that - that person told me! More like, and most likely that person is harassing me. Calling our house and not answering... Even used other people's name. Ako, BBK okay lang makipag usap sa akin. Maiintindihan ko. May kasalanan din ako... Alam ko... PERO SA NEGOSYO KO, UNPREDICTABLE ANG MAGIGING TIME TABLE KO... IT'S NOT ALWAYS A HOLIDAY. PASKO, BAGONG TAON nga may event kami. Sa BUSINESS NAMIN... Wala akong personal life... Wala akong social life... Social life, meaning gimmicks and night outs with friends. Kaya ako, looking forward ako dito sa ALL STAR, but if there's anyone or anybody ang mag aASSUME and mag aAccuse sa akin na PLASTIK, MANLOLOKO ako. Malaking kalokohan. I'm very much willing to spend the money I have na pwede kong ibigay na lang sa Mom or sa kapatid ko who's in need, pero, I would much rather spend it to people whom I've made a promise way back MAY...

And another BBK, if that person really wants to straight things up with me... Sana lahat ng mabasa niya and mabasa niya sa CHAT or call namin, sana naman maintindihan niya. Pero hindi. Mas naiintindihan niya sarili niya. Pati business ko, ipapamukha niya sa akin why nagCancel ang client ko last Wednesday...

BBK, I just have to be TRUE HERE... I handled this event called FASHION FOR PASSION for 4 weeks. The first 3 weeks costs them 60 thousand pesos. They issued check payments. Hanggang sa dumating ang bagyong Milenyo. Di ko na naipasok sa Bangko. For the 4th week na may Fashio Show ulit. Tsaka na dumating ang problema. The following week, I deposited the first check amounting 17,390 pesos. When I got this call from my bank, na CLOSED ACCOUNT na... The 4th event costs 25 thousand pesos. Hindi biro, magpakain ng 12 crew. Na mag assemble ng stage (bumili ng bakal, plywood, pintura + the labor, lodging and food not to mention ang sweldo ng karpintero). Ang isang crew 600 minsan ang bigay namin. Ang pinapakain pa sa kanila, di malaman na pagkain.

Pero, ang di ko maintindihan, bakit yung taong "ITO" di malaman. Ako pa ngayon ang manloloko... BBK, there has been a lot of obscene and foul words ang nagamit niya! Lahat yun, nilunok ko, tinanggap ko... OO, dahil alam ko, may iba na nagtampo din. Pero, sana naman wag na siyang magmura at kung anu ano pang kasiraan ang sinasabi niya at pinagsisigawan niya sa buong mundo. Parang because of t EB na di siya napuntahan, THAT PERSON WILL MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE... Wag naman sana ganun BBK. Alam ko BBK, may housemate that you once banned sa Board. Pero, iba na po ang issue niya. Minsan, I would rather give myself a lot of sleep kesa naman sa ginagawa niya sa akin. Sinabi niya pa kanina, wag ko daw iFLOOD ang YM niya. To be frank, IT WAS THAT PERSON WHO FLOODED MY YM WITH MESSAGES - and MOST WERE REALLY BELOW THE BELT NA. Pati mga taong di nya kilala, jinuJudge niya na. Kung mangmura, wala pasakit... WALANG LIMITATIONS. Nakakasakit na... Masyadong BRUSKO, ang mapagmalaki. That person might be studying from a prestigious school. He may be brought up well by his parents... Pero, ganun din ako. Di man ako nag UP, LA SALLE, ATENEO, pero hindi itinuro sa akin at di ko naging ugali ang MAWALAN NG RESPETO at GALANG sa mga nakatatanda. Hindi ako nag JUDGE ng tao to the extent na sinisira ko na pagkatao ng isang tao. LAHAT KAMI, TAO LANG DITO, MARUNONG DIN MASAKTAN. PERO SOBRA SOBRA NA, BBK...

[~^MaTs~^]

Belated Happy Halloween everyone... To those na nakaalala sa akin kanina, thanks... Sa mga hindi, thanks din... Siguro busy lang kayo... Yung iba, don't say na I have new friends... Lahat kayo, mahal ko. And kung meron man ako ayaw kausapin ngayon, you know the reason why... Masyado pa din akong nasasaktan sa mga sinabi niya...

Happy All Soul's Day...

Basta, BBK... Parang, affected ako lately sa nangyayari... Di ko po alam... BAKA NANINIBAGO LANG PO AKO... Para po kasing may mga nagbago... Alam ko naman po, na there might be reasons behind, BUSY or kung anuman po... Pero okay lang po...

Just miss my kaTROPA here... You know who you are... To new found friends, MASAYA AKO, coz I get to know you... Looking forward po ako BBK, for a BETTER camaraderie ngayon... NO MORE FIGHTS or war as some may say...

And dun sa isang VH, di naman ibig sabihin, di mo na kailangan pagkatiwalaan yung mga nainvolve na names dun sa CONFE na i posted... Or ako man or the other person. POSTING IT, some you may find it, AGAINST and favorable for me... HINDI... I did post it, para lang malaman na natin lahat. And I know after a week from that conversation, wala naman na yung napag-usapan dun...

I love you all... If you still want to trust me or anybody inside this Virtual House... Kaya lang, ako... Siguro, mag iingat na din... Coz, I can already feel chills or coldness from the others... Nakakasad... Kung anuman yun, meron man di napagkasunduan... Together with the All Soul's Day, isama na natin yung mga bad memoirs natin dito sa Virtual House, kasi, it's not gonna do us good...

Sa mga may pasok na... Goodluck! I miss you all... As in lahat kayo, pati ikaw BBK...

[~^MaTs~^]

[glow=black,2,300]Wala lang po BBK... Nomination na naman.. And again, pahirapan na naman po... Haaiii, kung pwede lang po sana na wag na lang mag vote... Or it is BBK who's going to choose whom ever it is, na di na deserving sa loob ng Virtual House...

To be honest po BBK... I really felt this sudden coldness na po sa Virtual House... The HYPER ACTIVE VHs that I used to get along with and fool around with are now a bit busy I guess... Guess, I just do miss the old noise these people were doing... Madalang na lang din po BBK ang mag online sa Boards or sa YM man lang... Nakakamiss lang, coz this isn't the environment that I get into during the first day...

Dun din sa mga di na masyado nakakapag online... Wala lang, if you have time, paramdam naman kayo... You know my digits, right? Hope magkausap-usap pa din tayong lahat, kahit di araw-araw - kahit paminsan lang... [/glow]

[~^MaTs~^]

BBK, I'm just wondrin'n why some VHs are not as visible as to the others? Nakakalungkot lang po, kasi - the 2nd Nomination has already passed and ni hindi man lang po kami nagkaroon ng moments nung iba. Like dun sa sinasabi na "baka sila ang next evictee"... To be honest, I don't want to hypocrite here BBK, alam ko naman po na yes, all of are after the FRIENDSHIP that all of US will be building here... Pero, I know po na half reason is to win this game... Nakakalungkot man po isipin but I know that all of us really wants to win... Some people po, I know may have been such a fighter sa start but totally coward naman po... I just don't know. Kasi, alam ko po, dapat consistent tayo... CHANGE is the only thing that's PERMANENT in this WORLD... Lahat naman po tayo... WE WANT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE... It doesn't matter how much you want to make a difference with anyone that we'll interact with inside the Virtual House... Kaya lang po, for some reasons, nakakalungkot and nakakatampo po, na there are a few fellas here, na nakikita ko na nag oonline, online ako, but still ignore me. I really want to initiate and do the talkings sana... Kaya lang po, I know that there still some remorse or still the stain that we might have caused to others still remains there... Alam ko naman po yun... Di naman po madali matanggal yun... Kaya lang po... I do believe that once you get inside a place... You'll have and we'll be able to build circle of friends... I myself have been a friend to everyone... There's this one VH who texted me the other day and told me that "that" person do really trust me... It is so flattering... I do feel it naman po from everyone... Even the first person that I voted last 1st Nomination... Never thought that in some ways we'll jive along well. Nakakatuwa po yu, BBK... Kaya lang po, there's this person I know inside the house and frankly, nagtatampo or let's just say nanibago po ako... That person may have her reasons (personal reasons) that she's dealing into, kaya lang po, parang I felt this sudden chill - I'm not actually saying just one person... Not generally though na lahat... There were a few who I know may have changed and I want them to know - I do understand whatever their reason may be... Hindi naman makitid ang pag iisip ko... The other, nakausap ko na po and I do understand the reason that, that person told me... Pero, still may others pa din, that I haven't talked with... I just do hope that whatever changes we'll be going through ay hindi po misunderstood ng ibang tao... Whatever happens, I know naman po, maayos din... MAAYOS naman po talaga, but I want things straight...

Lastly po, to the person who texted me 2 (two) days ago... Don't think that a lot of the VHs are voting you out... Alam mo, I myself have this thing inside my mind... Alam mo yun? I do really! I am looking forward getting to know you more... I DO KNOW isa lang ang BIG WINNER dito. And I know, OUR TIME WILL ALL COME... Lahat naman tayo ma-eevict sa Vhouse ni BBK... Masakit nga lang, for those who left the house early or too soon... You also told me, na wala ka namang magagawa "kung talagang gusto ka namin ma-out" ... I don't know who the people you talked to that day... But I want to clear things out... Di natin alam ang mga pwede mangyari... Meron iba naeevict because of too many penalty points... Yung iba naman because of the points that they gathered from the Nominations... You're right, baka ikaw nga ang next... You may also be wrong... 2 OPTIONS lagi... Ako, I don't care ma-OUT or di ka man ma-OUT... It's not the Virtual House that will only lead us close to each other... There are a lot more ways for us to get to know well... Kung talagang di na tayo tatagal sa Virtual house... I do believe that it's what's destined for us... SHOULD WE STAY or SHOULD WE GO now... Alam ko... With the technology today, NOTHING's IMPOSSIBLE... I just want you to know that whatever happened before, wala na yun for me... Di naman ako yung tao na mapagtanim... Sumama loob mo, sumama loob ko, meron din iba na nasaktan... But I know EVICTION or being an EVICTEE isn't the end of the world... Who knows, mas magiging close pala tayo sa Real World... I do believe na meron SOULMATES destined to be frieds... Here sa virtual house, ang maaapply ko is... WE MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THE CLOSEST FELLAS VIRTUALLY but I KNOW THINGS DO CHANGE & WHO KNOWS AFTER THIS GAME, WE'RE BOUND TO BE FRIENDS pala... Just keep the faith... Let's not close our doors and shut our windows for a lot of more possible things might come our way UNEXPECTEDLY...

BBK, thanks po for the conference kanina... I just realized how much I treasured SEASON 2... I do remember a lot of things vividly... They're all inside my thoughts and inside my heart... Masaya po yung Season namin... I do hope, anuman po yung sigla nung Season 2, yun ang maging VIBES ng ALL STAR VIRTUAL HOUSE for the days, weeks and months to come...

[~^MaTs~^]

Hala! Never thought some peeps here will see this sooo EMO... naxx di pa naman siguro TEAR-JERKER, aytee?... Well, If I'm gonna be the next evictee, I want my final message much like a sappy movie na merong maiiyak and meron maiinis... Whatever it is that I've felt inside the Virtual House, maybe the first awkward moments till the day that I gained friends... I want it to be memorable... Guess, That's how I'm writing my confessional... I want my words to be affectionate and would be piercing in a way that all VHs will empathize what I really feel inside...

I don't know... But fro my last confession, I know naman na meron tinamaan, meron din namang hindi tinamaan... Maybe because they're not reading my entry... Well... I just suddenly felt this strange feeling from a fellow VH kasi. I know naman na kasama yung TAMPUHAN sa magkakaibigan. And I know, if you do really understand a FRIEND, di dapat palipasin ang mga araw and ignore it... Though, I really don't want to count who those fellow VHs are... But here's what I have to say... I DO UNDERSTAND YOUR REASONS, coz I myself do have my own REASONS in everything that I do... I guess, I'm just praying and wishing so much to make the Virtual House a VIRTUAL HOME for all of us... And I know, kapag nababasa ko sa Bacyard Thread ni BBK, na Nomination na naman ulit, I'M HAVING HIS JITTERS and inside, I'm just thinking, "WHY WE HAVE TO NOMINATE pa..?" Naiisip ko kasi noon, pwede namang wag ka na lang... But still BBK's Virtual House has A RULES and of course - whether, we like it or not... WE REALLY HAVE TO OBEY IT...

I've always been a RULE BREAKER, but here, I guess, part of those rules is to MEASURE OUR DISCIPLINE towards something... Guess, I should thank BBK din for those... I may not be really aware with the verbatim rules, but still I'm trying my very best to adjust... ADJUSTMENT lang naman di ba?

Nakakalungkot, kasi a close VH of mine has been a bit lost somehow... I do understand that person... Kasi may trabaho... Iba ang oras dun... I just want that person that I waited here online, SUNDAY coz that person once told me, na magpapaturo siya ulit sa Assignment niya sa Psy. Oh well, Good luck dear... Wishin you well! Pagalingin na ang ULCER... Maraming Estofadong Ox Tongue pa kakainin mo na ihahain ng Mama mo...

Dun naman sa nagsabi na "SHE's" the one that I was saying sa confession ko... THANKS, kasi you figured it oh so well... Wala lang... And, just what I said before, kanya-kanya lang naman tayo interpretations sa mga mababasa natin eh... It did somehow made me sad, kasi I read something from your entry na kindda "you were like, nanibago sa sarili mo stuffs..." I've experienced having that kind of feeling... And to be brief with it, kung may magbabasa ulit ng entry ko, yung tutukuyin ko ngayon, she just said that she's happy na naging close kami during her very short visit here sa Manila... But, like what I said, what's done is done... Sabi nga nila, regrets are always at the end, di pwedeng mauuna ang panghihinayang... Ako, honestly, when I did my votes, I really had a hart time din who to vote... It was like I've had these second thoughts din... Kasi, right down deep inside me, there's still this part of my mind and heart saying "not to" you know that feeling right... I read a fellow VH's confessional too, and I think that VH knows and understands what I'm saying...

I just hope, yung tampuhan na dapat plan sa council (na joke lang) eh wag naman maging reality... Coz, I REALLY DON'T WANT TO PUT AN END sa FRIENDSHIP that we've all had... Kung meron man mag eend nun, I guess, kapag may na FED UP na and decided to quit na lang...

Well, you may all find this redundant... Pero, up to the end, di ko kayo iiwan... I've thought of quitting din, when a lot of mean impressions were made up to me by a fellow VH before... It was like, this young person was kindda crushing me into pieces and it totally breaks my heart, seeing a young kid, stepping down on me... Felt so small that time and I know there were a few who fully understand my situation and I felt so blessed talkin to those VHs...

I'm just here... Bear that in mind... I guess, will be a bit lost in circulation for days or weeks or I guess during daytime lang wala... I WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW, na I would still update you with the WHATTABOUTS and WHEREABOUTS of the happenings here inside the Virtual House...

Part of me is in GLEE din... Kasi, finally! We're all bonding and RE-CONNECTING with BBK through Conferences... We just had our Clubbing, Beach and Street Theme Dance Party, and from the bottom of my heart, IT WAS SO EXCITING OVERWHELMING GREAT, THAT I'LL NEVER FORGET IT HAPPENED here sa ALL-STAR...

BBK, thanks po for bringing back the LIFE and for wakin' up every single soul inside this Virtual House... Thanks po!