**:: Gee's LUSHUZ Divulgence ::**

[**::Gee::**]

Good Day BBk!

So, I guess there are lots of things inside the vhouse that are deserving enough to be given my reaction... haha!

First, I'm happy for our team for winning the 2nd battle! Bad thing, hindi na napakinabangan ni Jomar!

Speaking of Jomar, ayun, he quitted the game. Nakausap ko xa sa phone and he was crying. Aw, It is my weakness pa naman; to hear or see a person cries. Pero,I never thought na he'll quit nga talaga... I thought nasabi lang niya un kasi galit siya. Pero ayun! Well, It was his decision eh...

Naiintindihan ko yung feeling ng nainjan, or naiwan... Pero, naiintindihan ko rin yung feeling nang nagpapaliwanag pero hindi iniintindi... I don't weigh each side... Basta, sana magkaayos sila BBK...

You know what, I think something must be fixed in this house BBK. Like, well,,, I dunno eh... I can't really figure out what's the problem, or if it is a problem. A lot of things are getting personal nah... I think kasi, there are certain things na dapat sa GAME lang and ibang usapan na yung personalan... Or dapat talaga walang personalan...

There are heepz of stuffs here that I've never encountered in our season. At first, akala ko maganda iyon. Like, everyday may new issue. Unlike sa season namin, na sa activities and nomination lang... Pero I think malapit na akong maniwala kay isang VH from our season. All star season is a crowd daw. Akala ko masaya kapag hindi tahimik ang bahay. But eventually, sa season na to, it's like nagiging maingay siya, in a negative way. I don't know if it is really part of this game or what... Pero, may mga nasasaktan na! At maraming factors kung bakit tayo nasasaktan. Pwedeng kasama sa game, or labas namn talaga sa game. And there are tendencies na sinasaktan mo lang yung sarili mo, kahit wala naman talagang dapat masaktan. I don't know!

For this BBK, I am requesting an activity that can patch this/these thing/s up... Just to figure out what's wrong and correct it. Or if kung wala nmn, then wala... hehe

BTW, I've read Charles latest confession. AND it made me frown. I said before na kung ano ako sa kanya noong season namin, ganoon pa rin ako sa kanya right? And may statement siya na "Kung SILA naman ang hindi nagtitiwala..." Hayyy,,, ayan... I don't know if its personal... hehe... Basta, siya ng pinaka pinagkakatiwalaan ko dito... Sana he won't base all that doon sa CONVERSATION nila ate mats and trish. Para namang hindi niya ako kilala... Silang dalawa ni Benj ang reasons kung bakit ako sumali ng Allstar... To have new journey with them. And personally, I consider him as one my closest friends here... Then I'll read na may doubts pala siya... I hope he'll make it clear. Anyway, alam ko namang magiging maayos ito immediately, knowing Charles... He's openminded...

So ayun lang muna bbk for now... Ciao!

[**::Gee::**]

Ayun, it's been a while... For me... Yeah, and knowing na malapit na magstart ang 2nd sem... Don't worry, I promise to allot enough time for pbbfg BBK

Mica is right, nakakapanibago 'coz bihira na mag ol ang ibang ASVH... Let's consider the fact na dumaan ang Undas, enrollment week and others... For me naman, I have personal problems that I have to fix...

Well, 2nd nomination na pala... Hay, for the past few days na wala masyadong nangyari, I think it will be a hard decision... So, again, Goodluck na lang sa ating lahat...

Uhm, I kinda feel na may nagtatampo sa akin ( baka feeling ko lang un? haha!)... According naman yun sa nabasa ko. Well, I hope they'll understand my situation ngayon ( magbasa kasi kayo ng updates ko! wahahaha)... hayyyyy... Babawi ako sa kanila next time!

Ayun, again goodluck po sa ating lahat!

[**::Gee::**]

Hay,,, The reason why I want last minute voting is because some things might change.

And yes! That was exactly what happened. I voted for a certain person and after a certain conversation kanina, I regret doing it... Sana nagkausap na kami before... Anyway, Nandiyan nah... If that was meant to happen, then so be it... I just don't like the fact na, I've said some sarcastic words to someone... I think that person shall understand naman na I've done the entry before the conversation. I've said it tothat person nah... Saka kagaya nga ng sinabi ko, nangyari na eh...

I actually don't know kung bakit maaga akong bumoto, usually naman hindi ako ganun... I think it's meant ngah... Aw!

Well well well, bahala na... I wish walang effect sa taong iyon ung ginawa ko... Sana hindi maka-apekto iyon sa magiging status niya sa game... How I really wish...

[**::Gee::**]

So the results are up... Hay, I knew it... Uhm, it's somehow predictable eh... Not quite surprised... Nafeel ko na din na someone will vote for Charles... Anyway, he told me na na-feel din naman niya yun... Hehe...

Someone saved me... Hmmm... parang kilala ko yun! Haha! Anway, na-tats ako sa kanya... Thanks to him .

Well well well... I've read some of my co-asvhs latest confession... I must say na Ate Mats confession was so emotional. Yah, it made me sad either. Yes, like her, I miss the happy moments here in the house. Yung mga conferences, chats etc. Hmmmm,,, I wonder why hindi na madalas mag-ol yung ibang active before? Or it's because, busy na and limited na lang yung time nila for this? Or nawalan ba ng gana?

If you'll gonna ask me, There are times na nawawalan na ako ng gana mag internet, ( not only that..., kumain, gumala and everything) because of a CERTAIN reason ( uyyy... hehe)... Sa game naman, just add the fact na mabilis natatapos yung mga activities natin here kaya sa tingin natin eh parang wala tayong ginagawa or pwedeng hindi din natin nagawa yung mga tasks... Kasi ah, honestly nawawalan din ako ng gana kapag feeling ko wala ng gana yung ibang VH... I don't know nga kung paano ako naka-survive sa season namin... haha!

Luckily, I found friends here... I enjoy talking to them and hindi lang limited yung conversations namin sa game... They are one of the reasons why I am still playing here...

I know, sa status ko ngayon, medyo may nagtampo or nanibago... Ako rin naman, naninibago sa sarili ko... Like what I've posted sa aking diary before... Hehe... Pero, hey, ako pa rin to! haha... Walang OLD and NEW Gee... I understand them naman and I know na naiintindihan nila ako...

Hmmm, nga pala... I'm just wondering kung bakit iba yung interpretations ng mga readers ng confessions ko sa interpretation ko... hehe... Ako ba ang may problem?

Anyway, about CONSISTENCIES naman, there are such reasons naman why people changes. Yes, we can call such things as inconsistencies but let us consider the fact na IT might happen because someone realizes something that's outside of his/her recent beliefs... Again, it depends on our perceptions eh... For me kasi, as long as he/she believes that he/she's doing the right thing, he/ she is still consistent... Pag may nagbago naman, it doesn't mean na iba ka na... Like, akala mo ganoon siya sa una pero hindi pala... We should consider such cases...

Why I am saying this? I do feel na ako yung nasa confession ni Ate Mats... Haha! I became a fighter... and if ever, I'll still be... It varries with certain circumstances naman diba? Saka.. Hehe, pag na konsenxa ka or what, it doesn't mean naman na coward ka na diba?

( O baka misinterpretation na naman... hindi ako galit ah! Haha...)

So ayun muna for now... Goodluck na lang sa atin sa next activities...

Mwaahness!

[**::Gee::**]

Hi BBK... well, I just wan't you to know that I really like our recent activity... hehe... Hmmm,,, continuation ba ito ng conference natin last night? haha!

Pinagbiyak na Bunga...

This is one of my favorite activities during our season... Actually, it was also the most difficult one for me... As in, matagal kong pinag isipan yun... And based on our conference last night, natawa ako kasi ngayon ko lang nalaman na may reactions pala ang iba about that and, uhhh... i felt sooo mean! hahaha... ganun pala yung naging outcome! And, hmmm... parang may nadulas kagabi at nalaman ko na kung sino ang ex-vh na nakisali sa activty namin before... i hope bbk will invite him to join this activity aganin... haha! well para naman malaman nio yung pinagsasasabi ko, , here's the link, the activity is there... hehe:

pbbfg3.blogspot.com/2006_08_01_pbbfg3_archive.html

Anyway, just like ate mats, natuwa din ako sa conference last night... haha! Kikayness! Girl power ulit... plus lipgloss! haha...

Ayun, actually, ang dami ko nang namimiss na co-asvh... Paramdam naman kayo diyan! hehe... Parang multo lang ah?

So, that's it for now... mwaaaahnesss!

[**::Gee::**]

Okay, I got evicting an evicting point...

By saying that word, it means that I've violated this rule:

Using explicit, obscene or vulgar language or graphics anywhere in PBBFG Board, Yahoo Messenger, shoutbox, e-mail, Friendster and personal blog will not be tolerated

Okay... WALA na akong magagawa! Anjan nah! As always!

By saying THAT word to my FRIENDS na actually I've changed na spelling pa ( like what I often do...)... May evicting point ako...

Nagka-evicting point ako because I've said a word that has a lot of meanings... It can be literal, an expression or the OBSCENE blah-blah... SO, Pag sinabi pa lang, HAY*P SA GALING, may evicting points din? And somehow, you said kasi na the intention doesn't matter...

Do you think na I've cursed them or something? May kasama bang angst yun? Minura ko ba sila? Was the sentence read and analyzed? Well... I know all of us here naman are intelligent enough, but I know I'll be judged...

Well, well, well, I know that you rule... kakasabi mo lang... I just justify the act that I've done... The act of giving me such point well, oo nga, nakagawa ako ng against sa rule mo... Against? Oh well, how I wish that the word CONSIDERATION was given to THAT ACT or violation... whatever!!!

[BBKuya Germs]

Nope. 2 evicting points. One evicting point for not posting the YM confe transcript.

[**::Gee::**]

admin said:

Nope. 2 evicting points. One evicting point for not posting the YM confe transcript.

Haha! I forgot, another evicting point for me...

I disobeyed BBK daw...

Yah, I remember... you commanded me to post the conference in the storage room, and I replied na I can't kasi putol na... Then you told me na " Okay" so akala ko wag na lang...

Ayun, ituloy ka daw pala yung post... I just didn't remember...

My interpretation of what he said doesn't matter daw...

Sorry po, it's not clear!

Well.. well... well...

Nga pala, the recent battle is nice!

Ayun! ciao!

[**::Gee::**]

Wow! It's day 40 na pla... Really? So 60 days na lang!? Huwaaaw! Ang bilis! Haha...

Why is that? You know, It's kinda amazing... Kung kelan parang wala ng masyadong ginagawa, saka parang bumilis yung time...

Wala ng ginagawa? Not really eh... Hayyy,,, I remember, an ex-VH once said na sa season namin, parang 4 players lang yung naglalaro... Here, actually, I think 2 or 3 lang... or, actually, ONE na lang... OMG!

I know that you've read this statement a couple of times but, Kelan kaya babalik ang sigla here sa house? Or, babalik pa kaya?
Grabe, the first few days here are sooo steamin' hot tapos biglang Boom!...................... And there was silence... Oh well...

We have several reasons.... And one is yung kay Kuya Neil nga... I understand him, because that's what I've felt when Kuya Benj was evicted...

Others, I don't know...They might have been busy or, completely have no time for this...

It's so sad to say that I often have ym chats with those vh na hindi na kasama or hindi talaga kasama sa allstar... Even in conferences... Why is that?

The reason why I've joined ASPBBFG is to experience the fun of playing this game with fellow ACTIVE players... That's what I've expected... And also, xempre, to hav new friends... Yes, the first few days are so loud! Nakakamiss!

Pero ngayon, look what's happenning sa the battle... It's very disappointing to see na 2 groups lang ang na-form and then ung isang group pa is hindi nagrerespond. Paano ka ba naman gaganahan maglaro nian!

Actually, hindi na ganoon kadalas ang pagvisit ko ngayon sa board, unlike before na almost everyday akong may update. And akala ko nahuhuli na ako... Pero hindi eh... I think isa parin ako sa mga ACTIVE and UPDATED peepz, considering that status... Ano ba yan!

I don't know why I'm saying these stuffs, kasi honestly, nawawalan na din talaga ako ng gana... Para kasing wala ng tao, you know that... I know we have different reasons, pero nakakawalang gana na talaga... It's like, I rather viewing other peeps blog than doing this... Sorry po but I think this situation is worse that the previous...I've heard some peepz who are planning to quit and worse than that, some said na, they'll be inactive na lang daw muna... Whatta? Well, if that's their decision, okay fine...

I just wanna remind them that a game will never be a game without COMPETETIVE players... If they're planning to throw this thing up, then fine... Good for those who aim to reach the top... The question is, MERON PA BA?

[**::Gee::**]

Activity muna... Hehe... bakit 2 lang kamukha ko? waaah! Hehehe... Nakakatawa nmn yung results... Some are soooo mean pero some are very convincing... Hehehe...

SO, The results are up again...

Thereare three presons who are most likely to go ( Ian, Marge, Kenneth )... Hayyy... Sayang because I never had a chance to have some bondings with them...

Bakit pa kasi 2 ang mawawala.... Feeling ko, minamadali na itong game na ito... Hay, sadness! I thought this will be the best season ever...

For Ian's confession naman, hehe... Natatawa naman ako... Truly, his entries are worth reading! Haha... Idol! Thanx for your advice ah.

Hay, nothing changes... Ganito parin ang game... Well, I know naman na BBK can do possible things to bring back the life of this house... For me, I think, kailangan ng isang malaking TWIST para maging alive nanaman ulit itong house na ito ( like bringring back all the exASVH or what) ... hehe... Feeling ko lang ah! Pero, malay natin, magkaroon ng miracle at maging hyper na ULIT lahat ng tao dito... Hayyy,,, pardon me... I just miss the old VHOUSE.

Siya, ciao!

[BBKuya Germs]

Only you, the ASVHs can bring back the life of the vhouse. This is your story.

[**::Gee::**]

Ian and Kenneth are out, as expected... Honestly, nakakapanghinayang... For Kenneth kasi, hindi siya nabigyan ng another chance and for Ian naman, hindi ko na-feel yung pagiging villain niya. Pero kasi, no choice na din kasi eh...

Well, as for your statement BBK,

Only you, the ASVHs can bring back the life of the vhouse. This is your story.

I guess there's something in this statement na parang napa "hmmm..." ako, haha... In this case kasi, may certain factors kung bakit wala nang buhay ang vhouse... Tama ka BBK, kami nga lang ang pwedeng bumuhay ng vhouse, pero we somehow need motivations eh...

Nga pala, ayun, marami akong nababasang bagay sa mga confessions ng aking co-ASVH... I don't wanna elaborate it... It's just very disapointing to see na, minsan, naipapasama sa confession yung mga bagay na hindi naman dapat... You know that... Maybe it's part of the game, pero kung di naman kailangan diba, why writing that pa? I mean, sana naman yung mga bagay na walang kwenta ay huwag ng gawing issue...

Ano pa ba? Hayyyy, I'm expecting for a very motivating task and active participants...

Bow!

[**::Gee::**]

Aw! Nakakapanghinayang naman, hindi ako nakaabot sa individual deal or no deal... Sadness! Anyway, goodluck sa players...

At the same time, napa-smile talaga ako noong nakita kong ubos na yung slots... Whoa! Malamang kakapost lang nun diba? Hehe... Is this for real? Or am I just dreaming? Nabubuhay na ang mga tao s VHOUSE! Huraaaayyyy! Phartheeeyyy!

Sana, ganyan lang ng ganyan... Haha!

And for the betting game naman, hehe... Betting game ulit? Well well well,,, Of course I want Manny to win pero mukhang mas malakas si Morales... Hmmm, bahala nah! Hehe...

Ayun, pasenxa na po BBK ah, medyo busybusyhan ako ngayon... Pero as I've said before, I won't neglect this game... (Naks!)... Ayun...

Ciao!!! Mwaaahnesss!

[**::Gee::**]

Wow naman, nakakatuwa naman panoorin yung ASPBBFG Deal or No Deal.., Honestly, nanghihinayang ako kasi hindi ako nakapaglog-in agad, I never had the chance to join that game tuloy... Sana next activities eh mas alive pa tayong lahat kesa diyan... Hehe...

So, 2 lang po ba ang activities ngayon and walang the battle? Well, paano kaya ako makakabawi? Haha! Sana ma-feel parin nila parin ang existence ko ngayong week although hindi ako nagkaroon ng chance to join sa recent activity... Nagbet naman ako eh... Hahaha...

Hay, I miss having conferences na... I'm happy nga pala na naka-chat ko si Rommel, I knew it... Sabi na nga ba siya yung nakita ko sa may likod ng Melchor Hall nung enrollment.. Ayun, I miss heepz of peepz nah like Pao, Sis Kashen, Mica, Neil-G, Marge, Ate Mats and Charles...

Ayun, 9 na lang pala tayo.. Infairness, ang babait nating natira ( ow? haha! )... Well, goodluck na lang po sa amin... And kay Pacquiao... Hahaha...

Byesh!

[BBKuya Germs]

Ayun, 9 na lang pala tayo.. Infairness, ang babait nating natira ( ow? haha! )...

2 evicting points

[**::Gee::**]

Nice!!! Manny won! I won din sa betting game! Hahaha... Sana pala sinagad ko nah, para kasing natakot din ako kay Morales... Natutuwa naman po ako sa mga nanalo sa betting game lalo na kina Pao and Rommel na nagbet ng 5 points, ang tapang nila... Hehe... Pero medyo na-sad din po ako kina Ate Mats and Sis Kashen nagkaroon ng evicting points, worse + 5 pa. Di bale, may way pa naman para makahabol sila, and I believe, kaya nila yan...

So, again, nakakatuwa panoorin yung deal or no deal activity nila. Naiinggit pa rin ako pero I just realize na in a way, by unintentionally not participating that activity eh naisave ko po yung pagstay ng isang coASVH ko na inactive before, like nagkaroon siya ng chance to prove na he still exists and better than that, he has escaped the FE, yung rule na kapag 3 times in a row hindi gumawa ng activity eh FE na automatically. Good for him... Talagang everything happens for a reason.. Lolz!

Well, may evicting points ulit ako ( lagi na lang, haha! )... Actually, natatawa ako sa recent penalty ko. Kung alam mo lang po kung gaano ako nag-ingat sa pag check ng mga pronouns ko but unfortunately, may nakalusot parin! Hehe... I'll take care about that na...

Kaya lang, it's very disappointing to think na, after that rule was created, marami din ang nakalusot eh. So siyempre, some would think na " okay lang pala yung ganoon" or whatever. Then bigla na lang kami nagugulat na, " Oh, it exists pala"... Okay lang naman, rules are rules... Kaya lang kasi parang feeling ko po hindi namomonitor lahat. Sorry po ah... Like ngayon, may nakita akong confession na nag-address sa co-vh na nakalusot. Haha! Ano bayan ; ) ...

Malas lang ba talaga siguro ako kaya hindi ako nakakalusot, or swerte lang sila kasi hindi mo nakikita? Hehehe...

Hayyyyyyyy.....

So, un lang muna po for now...


Byesh!

[BBKuya Germs]

Pwede mo namang i-report sa kin.

[**::Gee::**]

I knew it! Marge will be forced evicted... Sayang!

I was actually disappointed when she totally didn't participate on any activities... I know kasi na she's one of the active players nung season nila ( w/ her pix.. hehe) , and I just can't really wait to play this game with her... And then, naging super silent siya....

I tried saving her, kasi I'd wanted to give her a chance, I thought babawi na talaga siya... Pero it looks like wala na nga talaga siyang time for this or parang she really didn't want to play na lang talaga? I don't know!

Hay, it's sad to think na, minsan ko na nga lang mao-open yung confession thread niya, yung message niyo pa po ang mababasa ko... Anyway, IMHO, I think she deserves it naman... Actually, other evictees are more deserving to stay longer than her pero, ganoon talaga eh...

So, para pong we lose 3 asvhs this week... Am I right? Anyway,,, after that recent activity, ofcourse, nomination na naman... Well, well, well... Pa-kaunti na kami ng pa-kaunti... At pahirap na rin ng parahirap ang pagdedesisyon sa mga ganyang bagay... What would I expect pa, eh day 48 nah?!... Haha!

So, ayun muna bbk... Ciao!

[**::Gee::**]

I really don't want to talk, pero ayaw ko din namang magmukhang masama... Ano ba ang kaakibat na act about that? Malamang, it's justification right? Pero, parang nakakawalang ganang magjustify kung alam mo kung paano magreact yung person/s concerned...

Anyway, I'm referring to Ate Mats's latest confession... I am not that silly para hindi ma-feel na ako ang pinatatamaan niya sa ibang lines or maybe sa lahat, I'm not that sure... I admit, may pagkukulang talaga ako these past few days regarding sa pakikipag communicate ko with my co-ASVH, pero I'm trying to catch up parin sa game by posting my reactions on my confession thread... Para saan pa ang confession thread, kung hindi mo ilalagay yung totoong saloobin mo?

Okay, let's say na it's her opinion about doon sa previous confession ko... Pero parang hindi niya na-gets yung point ko about saying that. Hindi ko intention ang ipamukha kay Marge ang mga bagay na dapat na ginawa niya sa game... Sabagay, we have different interpretations... Wala akong magagawa... Oh well,..

Nakakainis lang po kasi BBK, alam niyo yun, there are lots of disturbing things sa life ko ngayon. Family, Acads, Org, TE, Social life... And then may mababasa akong ganoon sa bagay kung saan nagrerelax ako... I mean, come on!...

I thought nalagpasan na namin yung phase na personalan or what... Nagiging ganoon na naman eh... I do feel na napersonal ako sa ibang lines na binitiwan niya... Alam ko naman na ako yun...

She can confront me naman about that... Pwede naman naming mapag-usapan iyon sa isang chat session namin... I like that better than may mababasa na lang ako na akala ko okay lang sa kanya pero kahit sabihin niya na okay lang talaga sa kanya eh mukha parin siyang hindi okay...

I don't want it to end just like that. Ate mats is one of my closest asvh... Actually, marami akong gustong ijustify pero ayaw ko lang kasing mag-away kami...

So ayun, I'm waiting for her sa kitchen...

[**::Gee::**]

Yes, at last, may activity na ulit! Haha... Almost 1 week ata akong hindi nakagawa ng activity sa house and I missed it a heepz!

Actually, I was praying for a very active partner but nung nalaman ko na si Charles yung 5th poster, mas naging happy ako!

Yes, I miss this guy soooo much and I think that this could be the time na makakapagbonding kami ulit. And as far as I remember, even sa season namin, never ko siyang naging groupmate... Naks! Kahit busy guy siya ngayon, I don't care kasi I know na kakayanin namin yun... ( Astig! Haha...)...

Whatelse? Ayun, I had the chance to talk to my hugs "neil-g' (hehe). Isa pa siya, na-miss ko din yan, kaya lang nag Starbucks sila and hindi ko na nahintay ( anong oras na rin kasi yun noh? hehe...)... Well, I hope to chat with him longer next time...

Ayun, I'm missing Sis Kashen na...

As of now, yung mga nakakachat ko madalas are sina Pao, Mica and Ate Mats... Si Rommel naman, hmmm... minsan lang....

Aw, 8 na lang kami... Sadness! And it's day 52 na! Nakakasad naman... BBK, I'm expecting very challenging activities...

Nu pa ba? hmmm.... Basta I'm soooo excited sa next battle...

Un lang! Ciao!