Diary ko- pee... Diary ni Rommel

[rommel]

Hayy,,

[rommel]

All Star PBBFG Life: Whoa, It Has Started!
by: Kopee
October 5, 2006

So guys starting now, this would be uhm, weekly. We were reprimanded to post happenings in our life for a Pinoy Big Brother Fantasy Game that you can go, the site is here Just click it and you would see my face there. Haha. Rowen/ Rommel 17, Olongapo City turned QC for studying here in UP Diliman. Well. I am actually very nervous about this. In Season 2, I quit because of hectic duties and all, but I stayed at the Virtual House for 49 days.

I am so happy to reconcile with old faces there from Seasons 1 and 2 and saw some fresh friends from Season 3. I would like to meet all, and just that. I would be active in this game. Now that I dont have really much games online, I only have one foreign game that would be in Survivor Elimination Game fortunately I am not yet eliminated.

These past few days are emo days, sentimental, crappy and lovestruck days. I just can't get it in to one word. Its just how I feel. I feel a lot of something for a lot of people. Special something, I suppose. I have a crush on my two dorm mates. Love struck/obsessive on another one. And I dont want to call it love. Or is it a miss? I know someone special there back at Olongapo that I know I feel something special for but still I can't tell her that I love her right now. Lets just say its critical for me to do a move,a nd she's not even the one who I liked before. This is a new one. I hope we'll see each other. I long for you, I can tell that. Maybe when I am back there, there won't be something special for you, and the feeling would fade. I hope the friendship stays forever.

If your clueless of it, that'd be fine. Haha. Anyways, am I really moving on? Am I moving up for the better? Or am I dungeoning myself to be badder? I just can't explain the mixed feelings I have.

This is the final week. Ugh, Finals Week. Hell week as they, and me say! Haha. Math defies it. Bio does too. Despising this subjects won't help though. At least makakauwi na ako in two weeks time, kaya lang mamimiss ko mga crushes ko... haha lalo na si _e_ _ _.. at si _ a _ _ _ pati si... _ _ _ e_... lol. dami no? Haha.

The truth is nililibang ko lang sarili ko, at bukas may exam pa ako sa Bio. Leche no? Di pa ako nagrerebyu eh. Haha. Tapos sa 16 ang Finals sa Eng 1. Let me check, yea 11:30- 1:30. Tapos sa 16 Finals din sa Math 17, checking... 1:45- 3:45... Shocks! Great! 15 minutes for walking! Good luck na lang sa akin. One great news is that I am one of the Top 10 sa Scrabble class ko and I was exempted in the Finals. One thing I am good at. Hhahaha.

Okay, ciao na! Mahaba na to drabe... Current Mood Windang, Playful, Blessed, Lovestruck again? haha.

[BBKuya Germs]

:: Moved from Confession thread ::

1 exam

Friday... Finals in Math 17 Review.

Monday... Eng1 and Math 17 Finals.


Kamusta naman? Buhay pa ba ako nito? hahahaha. Anyways, kaya pa naman, kahit wala nang pera at gahol sa oras ang buhay.


Hayy. cge na... October 20 na nga ako uuwi.. actually 21.. kasi Kublai's! haha Typecast. yayayain ko pa sina den.! haha

Cge..

[rommel]

Title: Random Thoughts of Kawindangan

hai nako...
nawawalan na ako ng oras..
hinahabol na ako ng panahon...

mawawala pa ata ang oportunidad
na makita ang typecast.
ang paborito kong banda


haii.
kublai.
kublai's ktwali
kelan ba?
20.
haii 21 ba ako uwi.


hayy crush ko.
aylabyu.
obsessed na ako sayo.
haii
windang.
just random thoughts..

after effect ba ito ng up life?
ang mawindang
at mapagod!
hai kapoi!

ubo fever na nga ako
haii sipon eklavu pa
haha

eeky terms
i heard cueshe-it earlier.
they are just full of crap and she-it
kaya nga cueshe-it

ay naku. typecast pa din
lab typecast.
pakinggan nio cla.

iniicp ko kung nag iicp b ang filipino
tinanggal ba naman c drae sa philippine idol
xa kaya ang tunay na idol

c stef keber na lang
tama lang un eh
hahaha

tapos bottom 4
gian at pow!
gudlak naman sa pinoy
kailan pa tayo matuto!

kaya pala bulok tayo
dahil walng kwenta ang mga tinuturing nating idolo.
guys, it reflects.


kamusta naman talaga.
gudlak.
sana walang singko.

5th long ko n bukas.
at hanggang ngayon
nagtytyper pa ako


adik.
cp.
net.
typecast.
kay _e_ _ _
haii..
kapo!
ayaw k na magmahal, kaya nga nag smart na ako eh haha
globe kac ung anu ko ^_^



gang diyan muna...

[rommel]

Uggh! Math Exam: Friday the 13th Experience



I am jinxed today. I slept early last night, than the usual 3 AM hobby. I slept around 11 AM. I woke up, looked at my phone, it's 6:13. I was lying on my bed, bored, trying to recover from the pathetic incident that happened to me last two days.

Pathetic because I have not answered a lot on my exam. Yes, today is the 13th of October, Friday. Now, I know this day won't do any good. I prepared for about an hour to go to the Math Building. I would have a Finals Review for Math 17. I would know my 5th Exam Score.

After long lectures and all. The results were up. Name was not called. I walked to my teacher and claimed mines, I looked at the paper. 17.5, 29.13%... Study! waaah. That was really low. Anyways, I expected 9%. Haha. But it was super low! It is really and humongously low. My goal at that time was 42% for the Finals and it dropped my ultimate goal to 56%. I need to get 56% to get a lousy 3.0 in Math 17 in the Finals. Bad news.

I was going home and then I was already outside then, when the rain fell. I went home uhm, soaking wet. Yuck. Headache. Well that's it actually. It couldn't get any worse. I won't really go outside the rest of the day. More unfortunate things might come.

It's safe here at the dorm, right!

[rommel]

Saturday, October 14, 2006
+ i wish i'm better +


Movie Flicks:
It Sucks to Face It!


Hay ito na naman ako sa pag-checheberloo ng aking buhay...
Hindi pa ba nakakasawa ang isang mundong puno ng tinik?
Lahat ay hinaharangan ang iyong mga kamay
Sa pagkuha ng anomang makapagpapasaya sa iyo.

Isa lang naman ang hinihingi ko... katahimikan.
Gusto ko nang lumayo sa bakas ng kahapon
Ngunit ako'y patuloy na umaagos pabalik sa isang masakit na pangyayari
Waring ito'y di na maaalis sa aking isipan.

Anomang nangyari sa kahapon, ay siya pa ring aking nararamdaman sa ngayon
Ang aking isip at puso ay ganoon pa rin ang inaasahan.
Ang pagmamahal na hindi mo kayang ibigay
Ay ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Sadyang bigo lang talaga pagdating sa mga ganyang bagay.


Kagabi, nagsimula na ang huling weekend nang buhay Kalay para sa semestreng ito, at kami naman ay sobrang overwhelmed sa mga bagay-bagay. Wala kaming magawa kundi magbasa, magreview para sa Finals ko sa Monday. By the way, that's for Eng 1 and Math 17.

Pero ang lokang si Jaboy. Putsa. Natripang magmovie flicks. Ito namang si Rommel. Ayun, nanghiram ng VCD. Kay Chad. We are not that close, actually I was off by him. But now, I think we're good. Kaklase ko siya sa Scrabble.

Then, we watched Mulawin: The Movie, oh yes! Ang cheap no? haha. Nakakatuwa lang na lahat ng boys sa floor namin na-excite. Pinanood namin ito ng sama-sama. Dala na rin siguro na this is our Final Week for this sem, ay we gave each other chances to get closer.

I was really expecting wala masyado manonood since I am not in good terms to most of them. Nagkaroon kasi ng rift dahil ako ang room mate ko nag-away but that's past and I am willing to change and do what is it to their best interest.

So, let's go sa movie. Comments ko. Haii. Isang movie na trailer lang. haha. Hindi ako nagkaroon man lang ng chills. I was not moved and touchwed, although the cinematography's great, the effects are like of Pokemon's lalo na pag nag-eevolve to Mulawins si Angel at si Richard. Sabay sigaw kaming lahat! Who's that Pokemon'?

At ayon, sa ere pa sila nagtalik. Haha. Sunshine did really great there. It was half of the film when we noticed Danaya was not played by Diana Zubiri, but by Valerie Concepcion.

Anyways, all's good, at least nakapag-bonding kami diba? Asteg nga eh... hehe ^_^
Imagine boys watching that movie. Haha. Cheap pero ayos na rin, pampalipas ng oras. Sobrang nacherish ko yung moments.

Kahapon din pala ang birthday ni Ma'am Tirona. At nagkaroon ng ambush practice, we sang:

"We love you love you love, we love you love you love you, we love you love you. Ma'am Tirona. Oh Mam Tirona, Mama Ma mam Tirona, oh happy birthday... Oh happy birthday, oh happy birthday Mam Tirona mmamamaam.."

That's all na. Haha.. And we had Mentos and Maxx. Trick or treat?
Haha. Ansaya.
Buhay kalay. Makulay na ulit.


+k0pzZz+
rev0

[rommel]

Saturday, October 14, 2006
+ inside your heaven +



Posts Galore:
Inside Your Heaven
by: Bo Bice/ Carrie Underwood


I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die
And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven


Now, it's for you to find out why I posted this song. This was a part of the past, a sad history. Now, I am ready to move on and face whatever or whoever there is for me. Now, I decide to give in. Not give up, but I'll stay here waiting. I don't know if anyone can give me more satisfaction than you, but I am now ready to face the fact that we are not to be together, if we are really not for each other. You seem to be light years away, and soon I want to be inside the heaven of yours, I may enter, I knocked but you won't let me in.

I hope that someone out there would find me, not how you did, and would love me for what I am, hopefully, I find her. Not now. But maybe in the future.

As I carry along your sad memories, I say bye to tears
But I fear, I am not gonna be in love this way again.
^sigh^

+k0pzZz+
that's all...

[rommel]

Tuesday, October 17, 2006
+ it might still be you +

Time...
Ive been passing time wathing trains go by,
All of my life...
Lying on the sand, watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting home for me...

Chorus:
Somethings telling me it might be you
Its telling me it migt be you...
All of my life...

Looking backas lovers go walking past...
All of my life...
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place
Would I recognize the face?

Chorus:
Somethings telling me it might be you
Its telling me it migt be you...
All of my life...

Bridge:
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And weve so much love to make
I think were gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time...
And its telling me it might be you
All of my life...

Ive been saving love songs and lullabies
And theres so much more
No ones ever heard before...

Chorus:
Somethings telling me it might be you
Its telling me it migt be you...
All of my life...

(3xs)
Maybe its you...
Maybe its you...
Ive been waiting for all of my life


Now, say what again? Another song from the archives. This week, it was three times played in my ear in a day and two others the rest of the week. Now what? What do I feel when I hear this song. I feel sorry. I really do. I tried to hide all this blank feelings again but the song triggered me to reminisce one of the most wonderful and memorable times in my life. It seemed so fresh in my memory that warm feeling I had that time, it was the best feeling I ever had.
I never imagined that doing that would cost me another sin to you. That may have pertained to why I said sorry, but it was not. It was just that I want to feel you even only once before I go. I will be away and I would surely miss you. All I want is a dance. Forever, I lost hope. I would always be the one stuck up with you but never the one who stays in your heart.
I would forever keep you in my heart. I cherished all the things you have given me. I am forgiven. But still my heart sings, it might still be you...


I might be funny and hopelessly sarcastic all times, but I have softer side, I do keep my word. You would be the only girl that I forever love. I may love another, I would surely long for someone because I don't have you. But still, I'll never love the same way I've loved you. And that's the extent.



^_^ kopee
^_^ k0pzZz
^_^ n0stalgically h0peLess..

[rommel]

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
+ raVaging emotional n0stalgic erraTic l0ve +

Well, the title says it all.
That's what i feel right now.
Whatever mistake I am feeling right now is because of you.
Ravaging, Emotional, Nostalgic, Erratic Love.

Ravaging. It gets better and better each day. I feel like I am obsessed with you, I am not feeling the same Rommel that I was before. This is getting worst, cause I feel I like you, but I won't want to be wrong. I still have dignity but what if this urge would make me sway from what I have been for the past years. I am longing for your love.

Emotional. It gets sadder and sadder as my feelings get stronger each day. It makes me wanna scream that we are not of the same likes, and we can not possibly be together. I know that this is just a fantasy. Wake me up before I fall.

Nostalgic. What causes nostalgia? It's the love I feel for you. It's the pain I feel, but at least I get smiles.

Erratic. Very wrong. This love should end. What I feel for you should end. But no, I can't. I really like you and I want you to be mine even for just a little time. Can I? This is so wrong. Sorry. Oh Sorry.

Love. This is Love. :$


It seems so dull and strange to fall in love with someone like this person. Why do I like this person? Why should I not stop liking this person? Why. Oh I am sorry for myself that this person went into my life and suddenly changes everything. I really feel that I am getting twisted. I am so so pissed of this dillema.

Sorry if I acted so papampam..


Another song:

Crazy For You
Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smokey air
Cant you feel the weight of my stare
Youre so close but still a world away
What Im dying to say, is that

Chorus:

Im crazy for you
Touch me once and youll know its true
I never wanted anyone like this
Its all brand new, youll feel it in my kiss
Im crazy for you, crazy for you

Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all

Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath Im deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, youll see

(chorus)

Its all brand new, Im crazy for you
And you know its true
Im crazy, crazy for you


Ewan Ko
Soapdish

Di niya sinabi pero may nagsabi
Gusto na yata kasama ka parati
Pero ewan ko, ewan ko
Naubos na ang pera sa kakalakwatsa
Gusto na yata parati kang kasama
Pero ewan ko, ewan ko

Pre chorus:
Napapansin mo na yata
Nakakahiya naman
Gusto lang naman kitang titgan.

Chorus:

Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti di ko alam ang dahilan
Alam kong hindi pepwedeng maging tayo
Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng.. ang ikot ng mundo

Susmaryosep ang dila ay sumabit
Napahiya na di na makalapit
Pero ewan ko ewan ko

Pero

(pre chorus)
(chorus)

Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti di ko alam ang dahilan

Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti di ko alam ang dahilan

Alam kong hindi pepwedeng maging tayo
Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng.. ang ikot ng mundo



magtaka na lang kayo kung sino
*-*
so twisted.
argggh...

[rommel]

Monday, October 23, 2006
+ will you ever learn +

+will you ever learn+
BY: typecast

So what's the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have pass, The weather's changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only bu yourself
But what about.. .

Un-lonely nights
Romantic moments
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

You know me well, You know it's wrong
Then what is it you feel?
You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won't fool me, cause you already did

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you could see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? Are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about.. .

Un-lonely nights
Romantic moments
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

The perfect dates
The sweetest kisses
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

So what's the point in all of this?
When you will never change
The days have pass, The weather's changed
Should I be sorry? Should I be sorry?
THIS SONG IS REALLY GREAT AND I JUST WANNA SHARE YOU MY FAVORITE BAND'S SONG. HAHA. TYPECAST. ASTEG! ^_^

[rommel]

digital fortress-inspired


Here I go again. Depressed and happy at the same time. I was learning now, I had to move on. It's the time to give myself one more chance. I really don't know why I am so so craving for her love though I must admit it, I still love her, maybe I just got tired of waiting for someone who won't be mine. I lose all the ounces of hope I have had, ring-a-bell, it's time to give it all up.

As of now, I have crushes on these two girls in Kalai. And they do not even know. ANG MANHID! Kuntodo paramadam na nga ang lolo ninyo. hahaha.. Well, I don't know but they are just very sensible persons to talk to.

The First Girl I would call Nutty What can I say? She's really close to me. And I really don't know how to approach this admiration for her that I am feeling. Ayoko na ulit magkailangan and this would have tremendous impact on our "close" relationship, and that's what I don't want to ruin.

Although she texts me a lot, it's all about the guys she'd want to be with. And I can't help but feel jealous at times, and laugh at times that she's telling me na iba ang gusto nila. Now, does that make me look like what? Ass. This girl trusts me a lot and I can not afford to lose her. What shall I do?

The Second Girl I would call Skinny. This girl, I started texting her last summer and I am really happy when she replies, when we are talking and other else. I don't feel so much affection for her but, I know I admire her. Mataray kasi siya and that's what I like in her. Hehe. She trusts me a lot too, so I can't ruin it if I tell her I like her. She might tell me I took advantage, or maybe, she'll tell me, the wrath for me to like her.


Now what, I seriously need to take a break from all this romance things. It doesn't work for me. Maybe now, it won't. I am so scared it won't for forever. I don't have the looks you know, I don't have the image, the attitude. I must say I have to change a lot before I meet this "TRUE LOVE". I guess, I'll just go in UP Diliman, busy in studies, and go to Gapo, get myself worked up with my Pamangkin, Lebron, my first nephew...

To her, I must say I give in. But I'm not giving up. We don't know what'll happen till we try...

[rommel]

Okay. It's the second week of classes. Done. Hayy. Salamat naman. Transition time ito.
A lot are new. From just one major Math 17 (4.0----> 3.0), and 4 General Education Subjects namely: Kasaysayan 1 (1.75), English 1 (3.0) woohoo!, Biology 1 (2.5) --> i expected 2.75 here, PE Scrabble 2 (1.25), Geography 1 (1.0) ^_^.


I have now only one General Education Subject and four majors including their lab. Math 53 which is Elementary Analysis I (Calculus), Chem 16 (General Chemistry I), Chem 16 laboratory. Physics 71 (General Physics), Physics 71.1 (laboratory). My one subject minor should have been Kas 2 kaya lang it would make me slim kasi. Haha. 11:30- 1. Ang break ko lang the whole day would be 1-1:30 sa TF.

So, prerog sana sa PanPil 19 (si Geexie may sabi) tapos aun di ako natanggap.
So prerog sa Hum 1. Hahaha.


Here's my sked.

Mondays:

8:30 - 9:45 Math 53
10:00 - 12:00 Physics 71 (lab)
1:30 - 2:30 Physics 71 (lec)
2:30 - 4:00 Hum 1

Tuesdays

8:30 - 9:45 Math 53
10:00 - 11:30 Chem 16 (lec)
1:30 - 2:30 Physics 71 (lec)
2:30 - 5:30 Chem 16 (lab)

Thursdays:

8:30 - 9:45 Math 53
1:30 - 2:30 Physics 71 (lec)
2:30 - 4:00 Hum 1

Fridays:

8:30 - 9:45 Math 53
10:00 - 11:30 Chem 16 (lec)
1:30 - 2:30 Physics 71 (lec)
2:30 - 5:30 Chem 16 (lab)






Wednesdays. Haha., wala akong PE! ^_^ hahaha. ansaya. tulog ever.
hahahaha.
ang gag0 ko. anyways, mahirap tatlo kasi majors eh.
argghness. minsan, gs2 ko nang hindi maging eng'g! anhirap kc. hahaha. nakakadugo ng ilong!









n0sebleed. toxic. waaah















pero minsan naiisip ko na lang...








SO WHAT KUNG UNO KA, Eng'g kA bA?


























Sinabi ko lang na ENG'G, napa-W0W ka Na!












haha. that's the eng'g ANGAS shirt. angas no?


magrerelease na kami ng sigaw ng dyaryo! at may bago kaming member. Her name is Chuks, Chukutong. haha sige yan muna updates.