The Diary of A Former Straightjacketeer

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basically this is what you get when you're too bored.

I just arrived from our field trip to Avilon (it may sound kinder-ish but was fun, though) and I kinda noticed that there were just a few people who really enjoyed the trip.

so like I woke up at 1am (I took an effin short nap) and I boot out to the living room to watch TV and then took a bath.

zoomed outta house at 3am.

surfed the net.


then decided to proceed with going to LPU to wait for my classmates...and ate breakfast fast. My bf came in early (whew!), which made me so happy.

left skool for Avilon at 6:45am. fun time while the bus was rollin' along Quezon Avenue.


arrived at the zoo at 8am. the place reminded me of Punta Baluarte. just so homey.


roamed around to see the animals. what amazed me was the Arapaima. they're the largest freshwater fish in the world! they remind me of Loch Ness...hahahaha.


ate lunch and went around again...then flew over to La Mesa EcoPark.

EcoPark. I began to feel bored when we arrived there cos it was my 3rd time going there. Seeing the same boating area, the same 100-plus step staircase, the same pond, and the same fitness trail...OMG! it just made me feel like I wanted to go home instead. I then realised that it would've been great if La Mesa EcoPark went first in our itinerary.


Went home at 4pm...arrived at LPU at 4:45. Droning.

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Going to Tagaytay is always fun. You see the miniature Taal Volcano at the left and the green pasture on the right. Don't forget the blue sky above.

My classmates Jai, Dan, Keeko (my bf) and Jenald were with me, scouring Tagaytay for a good outreach venue. We found two: a boystown with a UST-like area, and Little Angels Orphanage, a tiny house that sits next to a quaint chapel (reminds me of those little chapels in England...they're being covered in leaves).


Btw, We weren't able to come inside the boystown. *sheesh*

The orphanage we went to was far more welcoming than the boystown. The kids were really happy to see us, and the people there were kind enough to show us around the house.

Kids began to storm out of their rooms to see us---and one boy climbed up on me! I so love the kids when they welcomed us, I felt that everything was as happy as they are. ♥

After visiting the orphanage, we left bid Jenald goodbye (cos he had to go home early to Trece Martires). Then stopped by to Olivarez to have a snack at Burger Machine (sorry guys, we're short of cash...).

Hailed a bus at 5:09pm. We were so happy that we were able to accomplish the task before dinner (hahaha) and that we were able to go home safely!

The only flaw was: Keeko and I felt dizzy. The A/C was on us, and even if we adjust the fan, the cold air just hits us! Phew, good thing we reached Pedro Gil before anything got worse than that.

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Hooray! Day 1 na ng PBBFG Season 5!


Anyhoo. I'd like to share a piece of my gray matter ("eeeeew" says a mouse by the hole.), cos I know you guys are very busy and you need a well-deserved vacation and...blah blah blah...*quit blabbing, Nizzieeeeeeeee*


So, I have been very obsessed with HTML since forever and I fix my effin Multiply and Friendster 24/7 and now...all I get is headache.


Syempre I get conked in the head by my bf Keeko cos I spend too much time infront of the PC (and absorbing radiation)...eh sya nga panay ang DOTA nya eh! Darn...must make amends with the DOTA fans, for they might chuck me straight outta Earth! *reminds me of Asterix...those comics done by Frenchmen*


Now...let me share to you another thing: that I'm beginning to care about my ex-friend.


Sadly...after all that happened between us...it pains me still.


Whatever.

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Here goes nuffink.


I am currently cramming for these things:


> Filipino (2 tula---malayang tula, sukat at tugma)

> JPL (may report kami...lorl!)

> Biology (drawing ng skeletal system at layers of the skiiiiin!)

> Math. (kelangan mag-aral...kahit medyo tinatamad!)


>>> kwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I am very sorry that I procrastinate...*sigh* sorry folks, sorry, sorry. I got violated.



Natch. I'm off. Will be back shortly.


...was that a whole sentence ALREADY?

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Global warming is the reason why we get freezing nights and chilly mornings. This case is not-so-normal here in the Republic of the Philippines.

It's been two weeks since I realised that it's always cold. I tend to look at the calendar whenever I need to mark a day but now, I checked the calendar to just know what month is it now. And because of that, I had to tell myself this: "<i>Lorl. February na pala. Dapat medyo mainit-init na eh.</i>"

So now I come to school wearing a jacket.

The cold temperature outside school doubles when you come inside the classrooms! Brrrrrrrr....


You see, eto ang dahilan kung bakit tayo giniginaw: dahil sa epekto ng ating wrongdoings sa environment. Man, expect that it will be scorching hot this summer. Literally.

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Come on!

I have been trying to save money for the past few days and nothing happened. So much for keeping a so-called "Magic" wallet.

Anyhoo, there had been so many activities last weekend, 'cept that I stopped running around on Sunday. I watched WWE Royal Rumble last Saturday and went to CSB and UST yesterday.

Mas importante yung visit ko sa CSB and UST yesterday cos I visited my close friends! Nothing compares to seeing your long-lost friend sporting a new hairdo that she calls "palong ng manok", or seeing your bestfriend beating you up hard. They're so natural and so silly that we end up stuck together.


My two friends and I spent the whole afternoon eating, talking, laughing, beating each other up, and watching a fun football game. Spending time with them is always exciting.


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What else?


Midterms na namin ngayon. I just finished my English midterms, todo-sulat ng paragraphs (inductive, deductive, hinted) at ng mga topic and clinching sentences. Oh well, these sentences can just cause you extreme brainfry.


Business Math. Oh the nonstop computation and endless formulas. Another cause of extreme brainfry. Might they add ultra-difficult Math and Calculus, these two will knock me out cold.


What I love is Biology. Even if it's obviously basic, I just love it. Never have I learned to fancy human organs and cell division in my entire waking life. Ayoko ng Bio back in Sophomore year, all I did was to make use of 2 boring hours sleeping and writing and doodling and talking. It was the least I can do while enduring a droning discussion.



Just that muna, JPL (Jose P. Laurel) midterms na in 20 minutes.

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"Never Be Lonely"
The Feeling


People in love get lost and foolish
People in love get everything wrong
People in love get scared and stupid
People in love get everything wrong

At least they’re not lonely
At least they’re not lonely
Never Be Lonely

BBBBaby I think I’m going CCCCrazy
And why should I be sane without you

They tell me to fight it
But think anybody will just try it
Ill never be the same without you

People in love get special treatment
People in love get everything wrong
People in love their hearts get eaten
People in love get everything wrong

At least they’re not lonely
At least they’re not lonely
Never Be Lonely

BBBBaby I think im going CCCCrazy
And why should I be sane without you

They tell me to fight it
But think anybody will just try it
Ill never be the same without you

Never Be lonely

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Going to jail is, I think, very scary. At first, jails are way scarier, plus the fact that the inmates are, too. But this time, it's way different. Only the media made it so negative to us that we fear evn putting one foot on the door of the prison.

We went to The New Bilibid Prison to do some so-called "Gawaing Maka-JPL" for the inmates. So here goes the catch: we were so amazed with the talents they have and the stuff that they do while serving jail time. They must be doing all they can so that everything is just so worthwhile.

Every inmate partcipated in the activities and they were so delighted to just do it for us. They're so sweet that they were "halatang pinaghirapan nila ang mga performances nila", quipped one classmate. The head of the activity even told us that life in jail isn't what we think. Being inside it is way better than staying out in the open and not getting any disciplining.


What's funny it's that some girls got smitten with one inmate who has the looks! (even thinking about checking the place where Robin Padilla once got incarcerated...)


Funny. Really.

But to sum up the outreach, the day was fun, exciting, fulfilling...helping people and making them happy has never been this rewarding.

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Hmm. I now have my eureka moment! I have found the classical song that inspired me to just take life as it is. It may also be a remembrance to loving and sharing life to the one you love... *boohoo...it is being played at weddings...*

It is called "Canon in D Minor" by Johann Pachelbel (1653-1706)! He's best known for it today, and it is, for me, the best composition ever! As you listen to it, it is not somehow a baroque composition. It sort of says something about opening a new chapter, a new beginning, a new life ahead, but if you look at the title closely, it's in "minor"--sad.

Anyhoo, this song I dedicate to...erm...to all the lovers all over the world! *ouch*

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I'll quote a part of the song "Lying Is the Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off" by Panic! At The Disco:

"Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?"


Hmm. Valentine's Day has just passed. And I just can't help but say this,"better chuck it off the calendar!"


You see, Valentine's Day originated from the Pagan festival Lupercalia, and historically, it's a great thing to have this last a long, long long tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiime. But Valentine's? Gaaaaaaaaaah!

Anyhoo, speaking of which, I posted a short story that perfectly fits the occasion. The short story's about a boy who's ver nervous about getting close to his crush and stuff (for more, read it on my electrochemicalradio.blogspot.com blog) and he gets into a few mishaps, leading to a 'wish come true".

I overheard this at a noontime show, Game K N B?: "Love is not a feeling, but a decision." Hmmm, sounds like it's the complete polar opposite of The Darkness' "Love Is Only A Feeling".

Whatever we guys say, I can only conclude to myself that love can't be described, and that we can't always find a word that truly encapsulates the meaning of it.


Toodles guys, before this topic gets too mushy.

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Hmmmm. What do I see in this photo?




It's me holding a painting by my bestfriend Droo! <33333


Awww man. That painting's a gift to me from my bestfriend. Sweet.


Like my bestfriend, I also do art. Yun nga lang, I take photographs...and I write.





I choose subjects from animals...




I love taking photos of cats---cats sunbathing, cats sleeping, cats meowing, cats doing this, cats doing that---because for me, cats are great subjects. They exude the character that really gets into me like...LOVE! Joke! Basta cats have this character that when captured in a photo you'll just feel it.

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...to people. Usually my subjects are my classmates. My classmates are also great subjects. They would always come up to me and tell me if I could do a phot shoot for them. Of course I'd agree! After all, they love getting pictures and the camera loves them too.





>this is a shot that I had done for 3 of my classmates (Jai, RJ, Kim). These people love the camera so much that they always bug me to do shoots for them. I hope I'd see them in the future--sa billboards naman.





Another photo. This time, sila naman! They are a few of my closest people sa klase (Crystal, Arha, Aien, Mhanie). They are so cool that I always stick with them---cool in terms na we relate to each other. This photo has another version, though.




...another photo. Arha and Tich jumping. <3333


I wish that I could do better than this, like improving my shots and doing more stuff for editing.




Taking photos, for me, is rewarding because you get to capture them and immortalise them. They simply just live forever. Ayoko yung conventional na pagshu-shoot ng photos, as in yung the so-called "wala lang"...shoot dito, shoot doon. It's just annoying. I see most people doing those and naaawa na lang ako. They just take photos for what? Narcissism? There's a term called "camwhoring" eh, and some people nowadays are using the term in a negative way.


Ilagay lang dapat sa lugar. Sana. Have art naman.

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This entry is considered as the 2nd part of my other journal entry. Forgive the title, though.

Harlequin girl. It is defined as a "girl who has a knack for being vain in an excessive way". You know, high-maintenance.

It also suggests promiscuity and being very malandi. Hmmm. I am currently commenting on girls (particualrly a girl whom I've known since Junior High School) who are such, for they a) are much of an eyesore, b) annoy me and everyone else, and c) display histrionic behaviour so much that people think they serve no purpose.

Yeah, I do respect those who get glammed up in the right way, but if at some point, it gets out of hand...then that's another story. Being glamourous is putting yourself well in all the right moves, but society suggests that being glamourous is for the high-society, high-fashion people who are filthy rich and whose excesses are surpassing normal standards.

Also, those who just can't shut up. Yes, I have classmates and people around me in school and in our circle who are way too talkative, spitting expletives and blabbering nonstop about senseless things. If your talkative nature is but a manifestation of a psychological issue, I understand that, but if you are trying to impress...hmmm...but you need a reality check. I'd recommend your mouth be clamped shut.

I am not angry. I never got angry. I just get even. I am tired of the same old buzz about me and my friends.

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Update. Yes, an update.


> Finals na sa March 21. -----> I'mma faint. Hey, imagine all bigwig subjects (Business Math, English, Biology, Filipino) in ONE day?!? (At Sunday pa yun ah.)

> Heapin' projects (up for grabs!...sa mga gustong tumulong, joke) -----> Filipino (Panitikan and Thesis), English (Short Story Analysis and Journal-Diary), NSTP (12-hour Community Service in Cavite---complete with docu and stuff)...hoo boy! Ubos na naman ang allowance kooooo~!


> Birthday ko. Medyo di talaga importante, kasi...wala naman ang Dad ko dito sa Pilipinas. I only have my friends with me, which is kewl, but kulang. Ang dami na ang naghahanap ng blowout...ngok. But who cares anyway...birthday ko. I'm turning 19 na...just another ordinary day. (Unless Droo and the folks will put up some fun---say, an ice-skating spree. Oks na yun!)




Yun muna. Full-blown sked yan ha?

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I'm off to Cavite at 8am to do NSTP. Shoot. I need to save money! Malapit na ang birthday koooooo~!


I commemorate the day a snatcher stole my phone on March 10. The masked culprit did that in broad daylight.


Anyhoo, it's been a year since that happened. And I hope something happened to that masked snatcher.


Speaking of snatchers, I shall say that a similar thing happened to me almost two years ago. This time it happened behind my back. And the culprit was a friend of mine with a "cute face". Darn her, shoot her.

Awww man, if I could just step up to her and grab her by the hair! Masama ang loob ko sa kanya and this feeling of hatred has found its place within me since September 2005. I got used to it since then, since everyone had divided themselves into the stuation, since she started to "glam" herself up for my ex, since I went to a shrink, since I let my guard down.


When I see her face on Friendster, I regard her as a 16-year-old retard with a histrionic personality. What sickens me is that she's all over the net, and in all honesty, I want her out.


She doesn't deserves another chance, with what she did to me. I became so dumb with trusting her.

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Today's my birthday! <33333

Anyhoo, I already got my midterm grades...sa 18th na ang Fnals namin so...waaaaaaaaaaah!

Math: 3.00 (75.2)--> Prof. Lagamayo was the only professor who gave an equivalent sa grade. Ayun. Sheeesh. I don't like Math...or Math bores me...waaaaaaah!

JPL (Jose P. Laurel's Life and Works): 2.25--> Hah! 'Twas a good thing I had this grade!

English: 2.50--> Wheeeee! Hooray! <33333

Filipino: 2.25--> Shoot.

Science: 2.50 ---> Asteeeeg! Biology na nga ito eh! <3333 (Paano pa kaya pag Chemstry? Ayooooko na! Bagsak ako sa Chem dati eh...)

There you have it guys. My Midterms. Erm. Mas masaya ako sa Bio exams namin kasi mas mataas yung score ko kaysa dun sa classmate namin na feeling Honor student. Imbeciles like him should be reduced to oblivion. (LORL.) Ayoko ng mayabang na talaga ipapamukha pa sa'yo na "Honor student" sya noong High School. Eh hullo, College na po, back to square one na.


Ayun.

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Patapos na ang Finals. One more effin test and Second Semester's over.

I am feeling a bit sad about the fact that the sem's about to close. Naging masaya ang Second Semester, for it was filled with challenges and laughter..and tears. Haaay.

Well, I am planning to extend my "psuedo-semester" this summer. Just this morning Keeko, Crystal and I craned our necks over curious, hopeful heads just scan through the Summer Offerings list. Dad had told me once, as I remember, to do advanced stuff. So I had thought of going for Enlish (SPECOM), or maybe World Literature. 9 units max, and I'm off.


I'd really want to continue through summer because there aren't anything much to do this vacation, aside from doing the yearbook (sheeeesh, I feel a bit afraid...) and summer jobs (Drew and the gang had decided to scout for jobs...). There is also a plan for me to leave for London this vacation! (Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!)


In a few days, April na.

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Kinikilig ako. Period.

I have had enough of the usual loveteams and sappy love stories on TV. They just keep me more disinterested and very annoyed.

I have my old love for surfing the net, scouring there and there for photos of wonderful musicians, and yes, I have found more than that.


There's this band that I have known to exist in Europe for so long and recently they have just made their US debut last year. And the band's Mew, not the Pokemon (don't worry they didn't name the band after the Pokemon).

Mew's composed of High School friends Jonas Bjerre and Bo Madsen, and a newcomer Silas Utke Graae Jørgensen (well he says that he was the last person to join the band). Johan Wohlert was their former member, having left the band in early 2006 (I am not sure but I am continuing to check stuff) to spend time with girlfriend Pernille. And now from Denmark, they are conquering the world by storm.





That's the band.




and this is the band without Johan. :/

*sigh*


What if they toured here in the Philippines?